day 1 of booking into army.. =s that's some feelings that deep in me. something lonely. =x nt becuz i left home. is cuz i left that special someone i hoped to be with.

i learnt something, i want to hug her and hear her voice. but it wasn' possible at that situation..
hahas. im a weak man, actually had tears flowing out and huggin that pillow i slpt. >.< whats worse. i dun haf a phone to contact anyone thanks to certain reasons.

day 2, entered jaguar platoon 2 section 2 bed 2. hahas. nv a lonely number but a man full of lonliness i suppose.. within that army is a sad thing with no phone. >.<

in most part of the time i seemed to be unable to miss my home. but only missing my girl till my tears came out. again..

thou the training is tiring.. im supposed to go back in one piece.. thats something i need to ensure and be back home to see my dear and gif her a hug de!!

day 3, it was raining and lightnings.. with thunderstorms everywhere.. its a sad thing =( cuz it just reminds me of you and you only.. can't help keeping in back. my eyes gave up and "perspired" hahas =x and im still thinking back on that day.. on the day b4 i enter army.
ok. im still feeeling very bad..
still uncomfortable.. (still today i think? i nv knew i will be treating so seriously.. =s)

training up a lot on physical capabilities to escape ippt training on saturday!!

finally got to hear her voice. and i tried to nt cried. but tears still came out in the end. hahas

day 4, emo becuz nt the mood to do things well. missing someone madly till i no mood do anything. nv smiled nv joke the whole day.. made up my mind of training harder than anyone..
and i did hahas. ppl preparing to slp. and i will go try to do more push ups + try to do pull ups..
for ur sake. im willing to try the triple and even more multiples to improve de. =)

day 5.
im missing u again!! ok.. im weak. haha. still can't do a proper pull up yet..

day 6..

had a rifle presentation ceremony. ok. tekong island de sunrise is quite beautiful. makes me hope i can share the moments of day and nights together.. and during the night time i saw the moon. hahas...
reminded me and u and that SMS thingy.. =s

in a night sky, as we both look into the skies thinking of one another, you are the moon, almost there all the times.. and like me im almost unable to be there for u.. and thou when the stars are nt available.. and when u finally get to see the stars. they are always surrounding around the moon. and like me. i'll only do so too. =)

day7, something is nt very well with me. after the run. my chest hurts and its nt getting over.. the pain doesn't go away. and i can't breathe with a proper momentum at all.. hmm.. a bit not normal de feeling..

day 8, i felt bad.. cuz of my body is nt very normal all the while.. and then i tried to let my sergent know how my feelings and my intentions. cuz i really wanna do well for my ippt and even aim a GOLD if possible. but it seems that there's something wrong with my breathing which i dun seem to understand why. and i m missing dear madly.. =(

and im excused from a lot duties after seeing MO

day 9,
learnt a gd phrase..
you may be my adversary but not my enemy, your will is my courage, and your resistance is my strength. if i were to succeed, i will not humiliate you, i will honor you, for without you, im a lesser man.

nice isn't it?

day 10, another boring day spent. the pain the chest spreaded to the rib cage areas. and it hurts once in a while randomly.. something is nt right in me liao bah? hmm..

my jacket's still with you. hope it had done a gd job of accompanying u. as my substitute.

day 11,
became a timer.. shouting. thanks to some people dun even know how to shout timing so that the whole company get to hear properly and move as one.
luckily im a SINGER and in a way. i go there shout here and there. end up chest more painful and cannot breathe well after that..

day 12,
nv called her the night before. hahas.. too bz le.. i have to take over a lot of things just to prepare to make sure i can get to get out on time..

day 13,
the pain has been there for 6 days alrdi. nv go off.. and thanks to that. im like gonna OOT soon.. =.= nv do anything.. super lethargic. looking at ppl do PT, i go one side do mine too.. lame rite..

day 14,

yeah!! which is book out day.. haha.. the time seemed to passed super fast today..

finally had chance to see dear!! >.<>.<

dear so nice. specially came to see..
and dear nv slp well.. i felt super sad.
dear nv get to slp well and the eye bag SUPER BIG ONEE LORRR omg.. =.=

but! hahas. its something i will nv get to stop loving one. cuz u are the only cure for my heart pains =) but might be the only reason i will get any heart pain too~~

the time with dear seems so short.. hope i nv get to change much. maybe there's a distance between us.. thanks to the 2 weeks. but im sure... our hearts have always been together! =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:09 AM