"Avril's Asset here!!"

Thursday, July 31, 2008

yeah im back from work + nypsoundcard.. ok.. today i talked abt headvoice again.. -.- and bubbling.. hahas.. back to basics siaaa.. their basics is erm... nv do too long end up nt like normal practise ler.. -.-

gonna perform nxt thurs ler... 很想你 >.<

and just now i got a fren who actually told me he got tried his shit taste b4.. omg.. thats like EWWW.. lols.. and today.. tt fren of mine too, choked while eating fillet O fish.. hmmm lols.. and he drank more water, eat more fries to force the food down, yet he said.. omg its nt moving anywhere.. HAHA!!.. and it reminded me that i can't finish the fillet today.. hmm.. weird siaa i can't finish the MAC i buy today.. super rare.. ahaha.. mayb another time of indigestion.. hmm.. today had rather little amt of food thou... >.> today i think my brain burn little amt of calories.. haha!!

its time to play more games... im needing of games i suppose this coming week i shall play more.. they are something which help my brain operations... haha!! >.<>

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:33 PM

The ending of dilemma and hesitation, the day is nearing where i shall be able to face her with confidence. im filled with anticipation and anxiety!! =x

i'm a very slow guy.. i worry things too much i admit, and i duno how to do many things!! okay, i might know how to do some things, yet i have to go through my mental barrier to complete them. i hope u are alright to get over with them for me.. >.<

but somehow, im enjoying this few days. so eventful hahas.. might be tiring, but fulfilling everyday.. to be able to make her happy, that's happiness people often get to say right?

i think, partners in life and pairs up together.. they tends to have either one of them loving the other more. which can be compared.. for me now, i feel really happy.. cuz i know that she is someone whom i love and her love comes back equivalent.. hehex.. okay im lame i know =x but it simply feels great!!

i can put my trust in her.. i suppose.. =D the trust of someone in a r/s.. i hope she can put her trust in me and.. for what alrdi happened let the past stay in the memories.. i believe they are something that make us piece up together right now this very day.. u think so too isn't it? =D

lets just ignore the MANY things holding us back, and follow our feelings, since we both like each other.. and since we are nt romeo and juliet, there's no one obstructing us.. lets make a fairy tale of love in this era of our time! =D its a promise i can make.. and i will uphold of.. i know u can do it too.. ^^

its time to work again.. to earn cash~ hahas.. might come back and post tonight =D

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:43 AM

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

arrrrr!!! finally.. wad a day today.. haiz.. so hot last night i can't sleep well.. i feel SO HOT.. my temperature rather high i suppose.. till this very hour.. im feeling very hot.. breathes feels so warm.. throat feels dry.. hmmm..

i hope she will understand what im trying to be for her.. i DO wanna be by her side.. simply.. im just trying to follow how i feel.. i hope.. i wish.. i'll sing de song specially for her.. 眼泪成诗 =D

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:25 PM

ouch

somewhat she said im too good for her and said she is lucky.. but im lucky too.. to have found someone i truly like deep heart inside me..

hmm.. today.. i had a shock of a life in how i could feel till this day..

somehow.. she said things i shud know..

and.. i think i responded.. at 1st.. its.. painful.. angry.. sad.. confused..

i wanna be there for her..

i didn't kno how to talk.. and she appeared to be strong.. to be a heart of stone to me..

somewhat i felt scared.. worried.. painful as well... okay.. this pain hasn't appeared since a long long time ago..

then.. i thought.. there's many people who nv even manage to find someone they truly love..

to love someone, isn't it about being faithful, truthful, to both oneself and to the partner?

i like her.. for what she is, and NOT what she is not..

in this life.. i believe.. everything is meant to be the way they are.

from the 1st time we met unexpectedly..

the way we speaked for 1st time unexpectedly.. who would think.. i will wanna come to this lwssom to study singing?

who would thought u will get to be here to work and get to know someone like me ?

isn't it turning out the way we chose our lives and we met each other that way?

hope u understand that bah.. its nt just coincidence.. its our choice of lives that make us this way right now..

just to say, i will still love u. for what u are. and i will nt stop loving u, cuz of what u are NOT.

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:07 AM

Monday, July 28, 2008

a trip to many places..

ahh.. too tired to blog ytd.. now i shall blog about what happened ytd.. hmmm.. woke up.. feeling cold.. =x den lie on bed a while more.. after that smsed her.. hehes.. den she's just woken up.. hahas.. can tell how tired she is bahz.. >.> rarely can she be still on bed till near 12 de..

den after that.. watching at youtube abt a man called vitas, having his 2nd opera show... okay.. its DAMN amazing.. *.*

met up with her around 4.30 at her area.. went over to sh's place and helped settled her troubles with her computer.. and i found out the cause after some time while they were chatting.. and then after her meal + our million star show we went off.. >.>

to her place.. hehe.. okay. its a very lady's room lor.. hahas... her bed looks small in a way.. but it doesn't after another glance.. a very rectangular room for one to be inside.. hmmm.. to think again, her room arrangement looks rather similar with mine in certain ways.. hahas.. then we sat down after our dinner to play stacko.. its a lame game.. but we enjoyed our time together with more and more thrills added to the game =D

times up and have to go home tt time.. =s a bit sian.. hahas.. can't help it thou.. >.>
reached home bathed den continue the chat.. had a dota game.. ok.. we somehow won after we were losing.. that DAMN lame -.-i played teamwork build while im solo-ing all the while.. all they thought of was playing solo.. zzzzz shud nt been so friendly.. zzz.... pek cek.. but after hearing her voice.. calm down totally.. gave up on the game lols.. den her mama came back ler.. and i heard abt how her family thinks of me.. thinks im a nice guy.. cuz slightly nicer looking and looks decent, and most of all think i will treat her better.. OMG of cuz!!! if i dont who will ahh~~ =x

and she got angry abt a guy whos mistreating his nice gf.. hmm.. mayb cuz she have been thru it, but thou something like tt happened.. im sure she alrdi kno whats she is thinking of and knows what kind of mindset is already in her mind.. from what i can say is, the choice is her's, all the rest other people can do is be there for her when she needs it and to offer her more choices.. =D bring her out more often so she will nt depend on her bf tt much bah.. tts one thing for sure..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:20 PM

Saturday, July 26, 2008

a day for filming...

hmm.. what a down day.. today.. my whole body very down.. =( eyes was closing from the morning.. wanted to take a rest so madly.. =S so cold in the morning too.. block nose, sneezing.. yea.. nt a very gd feeling day..

den sms-ed her.. she nv reply fast fast.. took her some time to reply me... >.< and ahhh, she's somehow overslpt.. somehow we are having a hard time nt enuff of slp..

and we meet up, there i am very late.. due to bad hair day + bad stomach again.. haiz..
(she dressed up quite nice today too kekex..) OL feeling. but still its super cute.. hahas..

the filming is taking a long long time today.. ok the hostess is rather powerful at talkin.. as whats she's supposed to do.. and saw a very cute girl dressed up and shes very shy to talk one.. hahas.. as usual, kids are kids.. =3

but thruout.. she looked very tired and very reluctant to do anything much.. but ending up she was chosen to be there to talk.. having some screen time.. okay tt have nth much to do anyways.. then.. she was angry in between the filming, someone said something nasty. and she heard, somehow there are a lot of people that are bad at heart but they just don't want to change thou they know they are like that, people are nt separated to good and bad from the start, they just are trying to think their own ways which they don't know that it really hurts other as they are doing that or they are purposely doing such actions.. (so.. try to bear with it.. theres a lot of people out there who are good as well as bad.. get over them and life still has to go on.. ok? =D)

hmm.. im rather down today.. as i said just now.. somehow felt bad for being unable to be on time.. okay it sucks.. cuz im supposed to go find her.. haiz.. feels damnnnn siannnnnnnnnn =.=

today just isn't my day at all bahz.. somehow i felt out of space.. body tired, mentally down.. may make her worry for me bahz.. and haiz.. she still like to keep things to herself as usual.. i hope i can read her mind forever.. >.>

maybe i'll find a time to space out and look at the wide blue skies once again.. hmm.. missing the times i spent meaninglessly.. hahas..

i wanna do things for her.. but i wonder.. what are the things i can do.. and thats why i wanna look at the skies.. but just now outside lwssom simply dun haf a gd view of the skies.. T.T

and today, singing at room 2.. hmm hahas.. yy very notti.. asked me to a very ehem thing to her.. lols.. which i definitely can't do yet bahz.. its just nt me if i did too.. (*.*) lols..
i shall explain a bit more.. while sh is singing, she is closing her eyes to sing along too.. den i was looking at what she was doing.. hahas, and yy asked me to ki** her.. hahas shall sensor and leave it to u guys the imagination.. XD

somewhat im still feeling down.. wondering why.. just nt a gd day.. the night sky of tonight is same reddish spreaded widely.. suppose tml shall be a bright day!! hope it will make me feel better bahz.. if nt later she say she worry for me den.. its nt a gd thing when she worries too much.. i'll feel bad..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:20 PM

Friday, July 25, 2008

woah. mentally, physically.. exhausted..

hmmm.. today.. worked like hell.. okay.. it was like hell lot of work..

rather down.. i finished work.. it was alrdi madness.. prime minister came to that place.. and the whole things are like so Troublesome to make things in order.. and i carried a lot of things.. and haf to like.. walk for 15-30m to clear a table.. omg.. so big area lahhh.. -.-

den ah.. thruout im thinking of her.. haiz.. and yet somehow.. i can't contact cuz working. >.<>.<>.>

nt now.. nt anymore longer.. im satisfied with what im going thru now ler..

and ke lian she tml need to go for more work in the office.. jia you!! must take care ok..

a feeling right now that im going thru(somewhat mushy omg lol!! >.<)

your words reminds me of how u weigh in my heart.
your smile reminds me how adorable life can be.
your whole make my life a reason to be enjoyed.
i'll be there for u.. even thou i might did something wrong.
or even if i did nt.. i'll be there.. at least for how my feelings and my brain works till this very day..

ahh.. no more for today ler!! till another post!!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:04 PM

what a cold day..

>.< today is sooooo cold~~

wake up feeling super cold lols.. and somewhat awoken by the roah of 3 consecutive words.. "SORRY SORRY SORRY!!" okay.. i heard what they were quarreling abt..
1st.. my mother say she is goin out.. in a hurry liaoz.. den can't cook.. and saying the food is spoilin liao, asking my da sao to help cook food for everyone.. and my da ge dun quite like the idea.....

yeah... den my brother told my mother tt she's very tired alrdi.. let her rest.. saying my da sao nt feeling well.. say just buy out lor.. den my mother nt very happy with it..

hmmm.. from my point of view.. she have been keeping it inside her that we are thinking she might be doing a wrong thing from the start, cuz this kind of things there no right or wrong, from a basic point of view its her asking my da sao to do things for her while she's unable to do.. and den.. hmm.. my mother somewhat got the feeling of she's the one in the wrong to be asking someone else to do something for her.. i think she have been keeping things to herself while she is stressing quite a bit bah..

hmmm.. thinking of "her" now.. think she shud be warm enuff in her jacket bahz, she said rather slack today.. i hope so.. =3
den i needa work at T3 latr ler.. hope is a nice place to work at... hahas.. more songs in line to train!! 伯乐如果你也听说.. ehh.. i'll stop her.. blog again latr at night!!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:03 AM

Thursday, July 24, 2008

hahas.. a prank for the day!!

keke.. today nv contact her till she finish work at all.. wonder will she be thinking of me?? xD

nv sms/call her at all.. but sadly... she nv tried to find me yet.. hahas.. mayb she is bz with work and tired out bahz.. ahhh.. i miss her too.. seriously.. hahas.. just a simple blog.. >.<

hope she will feel alright with this prank of love.. =X

muahaha... nida go for soundcard practises ler.. hope they are gonna surprise me with their voices again =D *thinking of her.. =3*

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 6:14 PM

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

woah.. wad a day..

hmmm.. today yy came over my hse after a subway meal.. hahas.. den she said.. dun gay with her ahz.. den i say.. my life can only be filled by her only.. >.< lols..

den yy came.. we talked.. hahas.. rather private stuffs abt him.. and abt music and singing as usual.. music can't leave us..

hmm.. after tt went to surprise her.. hahas.. went to meet her up to fetch her home from her workplace.. hmm.. i really hope that she will get over the previous burden in her heart while im there for her as well.. since tt day i told her i somewhat confessed ler.. >.< while in a way she did too.. hahax..

hmmm den the whole trip.. nt short.. nt long either.. but i stress-ing.. cuz i wanna hold her hands.. but i dun dare to.. haiz.. im still weak as usual.. ok.. its nth much to many ppl.. its a lot to me bahz.. =(

i hope u are happy about it bahz.. >.< for today.. hmm.. nvm.. nxt time i'll improve!! definitely!! =D

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:41 PM

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

endoscopy

okay.. its NT a nice feeling.. hahas.. lemme talk abt the process... imagine.. something went thru ur ass.. hmmm.. somehow its rather smooth there.. but erm.. ok.. hahas.. skip it.. and it goes to the colon that each human body has.. it runs thru slowly... a huge amt of discomfort for me.. rather.. cuz the sedative isn't working!!! -.- im too much of an elephant mentality to be anesthetically numbed.. and i even get a whole lot of discomfort during the scoping thru my ass.. and up to near my rib cage area.. i felt the hit.. hmm.. okay tt isn't very nice.. but i get thru it.. so be it..

okay.. and nxt.. i finished the stupid process of being disgusted for 1 whole day finally.. and they kept asking u nid MC ?? from registration till i was getting discharged.. the whole process is naggy..

okay.. back to when i completed my operation of colonoscopy.. okay.. it was done alrdi and i was pushed out.. and somehow.. that guy beside me.. was slping like a log.. and i didn't even feel drowsy at all!! omg.. im such a thick head to be sedated.. LOLs den ah. tt guy while i was helping myself to be taking some milo + crackers. he snored.. while i wait for my mother to come back and fetch me.. he snored like duno #$^@#$ like tt sia.. -.-
such a slpy head.. even the nurse came to tell him he is alright to go home liao.. but he is deeply in his dreams... it worked wonders for him.. and i couldn't slp.. hmm.. -.- wonder why..... until i was almost abt to go off.. he gained his conscious and begun to take a drink but yet his hands no strength.. hmm.. maybe im strong.. haha!! =x

okok.. tts all for the process in this heavy morning to afternoon.. yea..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 6:27 PM

wah lau.. hate this PEG SACHETS

omggg the water.. is killing me.. 1st litre.. i drank halfway.. felt like puking.. and puked.. 2nd litre.. drink finish.. vomitted out.. quite little.. but it came out from my mouth + nose.. omg.. 1st time i vomitted from nose come out one..

whats worse.. im like.. somewhat using my ass to pee.. -.- all the water coming out from there.. and it goes.. yellow.. haha.. a bit.. ermm.. nt nice to describe further.. anything else find me and ask more..

haiz.. i wan a hug.. *hint hint* right now.. but i kno impossible.. hahas.. >.<

hope everything ends well and happy.. -.- but the beginning isn't nice at all for today.. what a toilet day for me.. suffering nv ends.. T.T

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:33 AM

Monday, July 21, 2008

ahh.. thinking of things again

hahas.. when wil the official day be? hmm.. its just value somehow.. but it takes some significance in a big part too.. hmm.. think of it more again..

today.. DFC as expected.. topped the grades from judges. and we can cleanly say tt entering finals is not even a sweat coming off them.. and synpathy.. is out.. hmm rather unexpected that they are going out this fast.. hmm..

hahas.. did some things for her.. that i hope to make her days gd! rest well ahz.. thou im scared abt the operation tml.. im waitin to be alright again after the check and be ready to tell her.. im fine! to eat again! hahas..

ahh.. hopes everything goes right for tml.. cyaz again asap.. hahas.. >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:57 PM

ahh.. to learn and to understand ownself more.. is the path to improve!!

hahas.. the title is interesting rite.. today shall have lots to write again.. hmm

for singing wise.. wei zhen told me things i nid to take note off.. hahas.. shall put them down.. (cause of ur current post)

hmm.. i might nt have a career yet.. thats something i will guarentee for the future!!

but.. i kno.. i found u too.. im damn lucky too..

cuz u know.. i really wanted a girl like u.. i've always said that.. but its seriously from my heart tt is how i feel..

u might nt be observant, but passionate!

nt considerate.. but selfless!

nt gentle.. WRONG hey.. who said tt.. u are gentle!!.. and fragile too!

so i am lucky.. with no worries i assure of it!!

and for future wise.. its nt impossible.. hahas! i will try my best to do it!

one thing too.. ur forte is nt only acting cute.. ur whole being.. is the reason i will yearn to live for liaoz..

hmmm.. thats all for today i think.. OMG reading it again i find it so mushy >.> shy siaaaaaaaa.....

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:02 AM

Saturday, July 19, 2008

a somewhat nt feeling right day..

today.. hmm..
woke up feeling damn cold... and covered myself in blanket and can't slp well.. hahas.. how i hope i can hug someone.. but i cfm too shy to do anything one.. a long and tiring day.. i having stomach runs since the moment i reach there.. b4 i perform.. and after i performed, until all the while im nt feeling alright.. hmm.. screwed up my singing performance haiz.. sian.. wad a bad day.. and then.. i noticed.. avril is too nice ler.. she keeps all her problems to herself.. dun wanna reveal one.. so i must use my RELL's sense to be alert if she have anything kept in mind to ask her.. if i dun ask she wun say.. tts for sure.. if i ask still can get the chance to know.. and i hope.. i'll be able to take better care of her!!! and to sing better too of cuz!! hahas.. its hard.. but i'll try.. at least.. >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:31 PM

Thursday, July 17, 2008

woah.. another tiring but.. eventful day..

hmmm.. today.. went to work.. hahas.. today got full house for 2 full hours sia..omg.. so long nv get in a weekday liao lor.. den asked for extend.. i didn't want to.. lols.. and i keep on feeling slpy thruout.. and thinking of someone while working.. lols.. a bit daze off de feeling..

den went home.. hmmm.. rest a while thought shud i go for soundcard.. very tiring day.. soundcard.. nids a reform asap.. den i told them i can't go for the day.. but im really too tired my eyes are.. too tired.. just trying to stay alive on my comp.. lols..

hmm.. today.. somethings happened.. might be said as sad. might be said as happy... but.. more happy than sad one.. hahas.. >.<>.< lols..

hmm.. duno how to blog ler.. AHH prepared songs for lwssom.. 彩虹, 寂寞的季节, 我怀念的, 寂寞是临睡的习惯.. hope they are ok to be used for open house!! okay.. its a gd day today!! hope it is for the coming days too!! =D

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:18 PM

woah.. tiring day..

hmm.. today happened some interesting things.. >.<

was at the nyp for soundcard performance.. and listened.. and slightly dissapointed by what they did on stage.. hmmm a lot of things to SAY tml again!! must make them wake up on what they are doing..

hmmm den after tt went to meet up with avril sh yy today.. and hmm.. was at tanjong pagar.. ok i duno how to spell tt place.. outside cpf building.. to fetch avril.. wow thou.. hmm.. and saw k**w**.. hmm.. i think.. there's a lot of things to be somewhat said to the open..

the feelings.. the thought.. the friendship.. hahas.. i shall sacrifice and be the one to begin the confrontation!!
cuz ahz.. today saw how scared avril is and she looks so frightened.. like something haunting her is coming again.. haiz.. i feel bad lookin at how sad she get on her face.. somehow im lookin whether or not she will cry at home anot.. but i can sae is.. when no one is talkin to her and anything that shows on her phone with his name.. im sure she will get.. frightened madly.. hmm.. but i'm sure.. there's a lot to be there for her.. AT the LEAST im here if there's no one else.. >.<

k**w**.. haiz.. i think sometimes.. u nid to think abt ur actions in treating and handling things.. if u wanna stay away and ignore..den try to dun make things rather obvious.. and rather meaningless, and sometimes.. scary.. mayb u wanna speak sometimes.. can find me.. im sure i can help a bit.. struggling within oneself is nt a best solution..

thats al for today bah.. time to let off the stop the blogging!! >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:11 AM

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

haha nice slp..

ahh.. ytd i took a nice rest until whole day i nv get to yawn!!.. >.<>.<

hmm.. it is so fun ytd... in soundcard meeting.. had some serious plannings for the upcoming weeks in this clubhouse.. i suppose now.. other than jeremy we need someone who can get to control everyone.. he needs to appoint someone to be in charge when he's nt there or when im nt there to guide them along.. but we need to train one up asap.. >.<

ahh.. this week is rather gonna be a slacking week compared to the previous one.. work few days.. gimmi chance to think of things i would/should nt think off.. hahas.. hmmm.. bringing my friend along to see open house on saturdaY!! anyone interested pls contact me!! i'll bring ya there to see how fun it is in our LWSSOM!!! =D

and mayb hang out with those ppl there.. or hahas.. even help out.. >.<

hmmm later gonna work ler.. very lazy lehz.. >.< wanna slp more. but haiz can't.. needa be responsible of the work.. even thou the pay is DARN low.. =s

when will i ever get something called pay raise! hmmm.. im so into this song now(很想你).. and i thought of a way to sing this song ler..!!! hope u ppl are gonna anticipate how i get to sing this song!! might nt be very well done.. dun expect too much difference from the singer.. i hope i can do whateva possible.. >.<

well!! prepare to work ler!! cyaz..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:15 AM

Sunday, July 13, 2008

hmmm.. what a talkative day!!

hahas.. hellos im back to blog again today.. hmmm.. its a fun week as usual.. well.. its more interesting lately.. hanging out together with yihyu, sihui, kerwee, avril.. hahas.. avril is cute i admit.. -,- and thats a cute that i can't describe well.. LOL..

okay.. from monday start the writings..

hmmm.. working again!!! wah mdm bully me.. nt enuff ppl make me work from 12-11 omg.. -.-
reach home damn tired... den hahas... meeting up friends a lot this week!! can't wait.. played dota(again) and looked at pics around in frenster to look up at my friends updates.. den i play till late night den slp liaoz..

tuesday...
it wasn't very fun.. working in swensons that much days.. lols..
den at night went to meet up with friends to think of things to do for the coming performance for soundcard.. ended up crapping and eating supper.. -.-

wednesday..
met up with people in the clubroom in nyp for soundcard again..
hahas.. and listen to some of them sang their performance songs.. hmm.. i can help them improve.. if they allow me to.. im sure of it.. thats why i came up ideas.. of improving them ler!! coming training shall be interesting!!

thursday..
work in afternoon again.. and this time.. OMG.. im damn freaking tired ler.. during work my eyes turn pure red.. and i went home earlier.. at 3 i went home.. and then slp till 6.. and go nyp soundcard!! coach a bit.. and went home to slp again..

friday!!
work again in afternoon.. ahh.. nt so tired ler.. i slp a lot this time..
den go lwssom!! went to sing songs.. hmmm.. wasn't in proper mindset and mood to sing yet.. hahas.. hope they are okay with me.. >.<

and then i go chalet ler!! met up with sh, avril to go pasir ris.. we played along.. and hope its fun together!!
and i went home afterwards.. so slp and rest..

Saturday..
ahh.. met up with them after they delayed it.. and i was late due to house things.. -.- it was abt to rain and i nid to go back bring in the clothes.. SO MA FAN.. zzz
meet up.. and went to SHOKUDO.. hmm nice food!! hahas.. rather creamy ahh.. i ordered cream bacon pasta.. and its soo creamy is rather sick after i finish the food.. the CREAMY taste stuck at my mouth for quite some time..>.> apple vinegar nt bad ah.. and wad a day to emo talk sia.. -.-

k enuff for today.. its getting too emo now.. -.- bb..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:13 AM

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

ah.. another time to work again..

the ending of slacking days..

i went back to swensons to work again. ah.. bored way too much lols.. bored of games. bored of slacking.. but still very into singing.. hmmm.. i've been singing today again!!! =x

hmmm yeah.. quite like it as usual... hahas.. hmmm.. been thinking things again since im TOO FREE =s

i wanna improve on singing. but 1st i nid to improve on MORE THINGS omg... haha.. i've been emotionally affected again lately.. =s mentally unstable somehow..

and today read the mail abt the earthquake in china.. ok... its DAMN touching to see how people've lives are that fragile and yet.. strive to live.. and the one that touched me the most is how a mother tried to save her own child. by shielding her child using her own body.. in a arch position. while thousands piles of rubble collapse on her back.. that picture is simple too.. haiz..

motherly love is indeed.. the greatest love in this world..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:23 AM

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

The time to blog again hahas

hmmm wondering who will be reading this blog after some time.. hahas but its time to blog my daily emotions once again..

from previous week i shall say.. hmm..

one saturday,
went for performing group auditions.
it wasn't very well done that time.. i was in thru using the song.. 寂寞是临睡前的习惯 for the 1st round.. jj lao shi pressed the bell halfway thru the song.. i tot i crapped the whole audition.. but i entered the 1st round! ~~

then.. was given to choose songs, and i stupidly chose a song with weird 拍子and a lot of words one.. haiz. crapped out.. having to understand and memories the lyrics will tend to improve one's confidence in the performance of the song.. yet i nv get to memorise.. so did shane.. and it did a very big impact on him.. while i still try to mumble some words through.. >.>

hmm.. i felt bad tt day. for that we both did badly.. and yet only i get thru the auditions into pg.. i think they saw something in me which i had yet to find in myself i suppose. hmm..

nvm! since im in means i nid to work double the hard to nt make ppl look down on me and try to nt throw the faces of those who selected me to enter!!

then.. there came the exams of the 4th term in lwssom.. wei song laoshi came to inspect our standard of singing and grade us.. haiz. i couldn't do well.. there was some mental barrier in me while i wasn't able to slp well the day b4. thanks to my brother who koped all my pillow and bolster leaving me a hard bed to slp on.. and most of all. i couldn't listen to the background music well at all.. haiz. but i cannot use it as an excuse. just 不服气 that i nv did my best for the day when it came for performance.. even thou i passed the test. i felt that i lost in my heart...
and i saw an anime.. that guy was crying.. and he went to the tap water and wash his face.. (too bad it wasn't raining..) and i felt so too. haiz.. i am sad and dissapointed in me.. cuz i can't face the fact that i sucked out during exam.. haiz...

den today... i went for work in swensons once again.. while my whole mind is still singing.. when i walk around to look for customers to service them their orders/food and everything.. im humming the songs.. when im behind near the side i will sing slightly louder abit.. aha.. singing is in my heart body and soul!! while walking back i tried to sing again.. and cuz it wasn't having anyone beside in the late night. i screamed the whole song thru and sang a rather high pitch.. and i was trying to use different parts of vocals to sing.. falsetto, headvoice , chestvoice.. and middle voice.. hmmm rather cool that i kno i can do all this.. but nid to be more aware of how singing works for me is more impt.. haiz.. if wanna talk abt improvement.. its time to do something... if nt someone is gonna overtake me in pg.. =(

okay enuff for lwssom singing stuffs..

time to talk abt nyp soundcard..
ok..
its a club abt pop singing..

rather cool heh... okay.. in a way im a vocal instructor there.. and somehow i think i have more experience in performing than the people there. tats why i get to become a vocal instructor bah.. but i can't use anything from lwssom.. if nt it wud be copy righted stuffs.. so i haf to teach from wad i understand from my side of view.. and nt from what i get and learnt from lwssom..

last thurs. was a training for them... there is a lot of very gd singers in the club. i WOWed after nt listening to so much people for a long time.. its another eye opener for me again.. okay.. there's a lot of gd voice in this world. but how to make urself wanted by others? is also another gd qns..

somehow i nid to understand more abt myself too. hmm.. and one thing.. both.. jj and ws laoshi said i sing my mouth will look wierd.. hahas.. i nid to look at the mirror more!! thats what they told me to.. and to kno how to smile properly.. hmmm.. work out million dollars smile.. rather cool heh.. haha..

okay its gd to find a place to write down feeling and sorts.. hmmm work work work.. think think think.. thats what i can do now.. >.>

nono.. SING SING SING!!!! =D

and r/s side.. hmmm... i shall still be looking and waiting bah.. i duno how to feel in love again yet.. still hiding in the streets of the heart.. =s hahas.. somehow random thought =X

hmmm... shall post again another day!! bbb~~

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:16 AM