Sunday, September 30, 2007

Dilemma

haiz. i so emo. i like her. yet i duno how she feels for me. she like taking me for a normal fren. or juz a little more than normal fren like tt only. i reali beginning to feel irritated and sian diao. i duno what im doin is worthed the task or am i just wasting my time and effort. haiz. can some kinda things happen to encourage me to continue? =(

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:41 AM

Friday, September 28, 2007

Something that i share

Hmmm.. i have been having indigestion lately and i didn't kno till today i went to see doctor. =x and the medicine is superb! once taken i alrdi feeling so gd! how i hope the nxt medicine taking time is like now immediate effect of now?

hmmm. i am stil waiting for that someone to sae she wanna b with me. =(

i truly like her. truly so madly and deeply. hahaha =x

i dreamt of her ytd. when i nv sms or call her, my heart is totally so filled with her face in my brain lol. i didn't had such a thing b4. when i had such a thing. it wasn't that pleasant..

the dream i had of is so lively. and i could still feel it. haha she is smiling at me. but nt that kind of radiant one. is a shy and humble smile. hahaha omg. im a sick man.. >.< i still like her that much seh =x

she is cute and adorable like she says and i always sae no to her. but in my heart.. haha i still find her super cute.. =( but i duno how she thinks of me =(

eh.. haha and i wish to hold her hands like the past where i am so shy. i hope to kiss her on the cheek and say good bye to her whenever i go off home and leave her for the day. but i duno when the time comes am i still veri shy and dun dare to do such a thing anot.

i hope to do so many things where even i dun behave like tt in the past and now and i kno i truly like her i think this kind of things are nessasary. i think i am falling for her slowly and we are still frenz

being frenz make us kno and understand each other more and yet we are behaving rather close and i somehow like this feeling of being together.

but in conclusion. she is in my heart and i seriously like her VERI MUCH!!! >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:34 PM

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

The New Round

i was indirectly rejected. i may wait. but i dun think it will be too long. i dun wanna b a loser. ah...

sux im weak.

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:08 AM

Sunday, September 23, 2007

The Feat

i got a thought of knowing what to do and how to do do the girl i like

its surprising definitely. but of cuz. i will try my best b4 i give up.

after all. giving up is nt my best forte.

i hope i shall pass. thou im afraid of doing everything.

huggins + kissing. and all kinds of intimate actions is a number 1 thing i am afraid to do off. >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:25 AM

Sunday, September 16, 2007

wad an emo-ing sunday

today i haf totally no mood to do things. i slpt at near 4am in the morning and woke up at 10. i must b some kinda mad man that has continued to nt slp enuff for many days. suspecting that i might get depression soon. haiz.

i like that girl. =( but. haiz. she and i are just simply close in the sense as we are gd friends. but when it comes to her. i offer more help than anyone. i tried to get close to her without my own consciousness.

like how i was. i still like her so much.

like the rain and wind that came by in the past, it still feels the same as it is today.

why. how. what am i thinking.

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 5:42 PM

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Do i need a reason and a cause.

haiz. i duno why. i am thinking of such things now. why. i can treat her so nice. i treat everyone else normal.
but when i think of her. i'll b more active. i'll try to keep her company, and wanting her company too..
looking at her sad. i want to make her happier. looking at her angry, i haf no choice but to try and think how to calm her down.. i hope that she is lookin at me as a potential bf, nt as a brother.

i still like her after all. she's simply my type of girl bah. haiz =(

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:56 PM