okay.. this is a heart-felt post.. i felt useless and powerless again..
thanks to my leg.. i missed out a lot of things.. due to my own carelessness..
im supposed to turn up for recording.. missed it again.. caused trouble again..
missing the coming PG practise which i think i seriously nids a lot training and practises cuz im still very stress to perform to teachers and when weisong laoshi is around i get more stress naturally..

and cause of my leg i can't get to bring my dear home at all.. i feel more sian
and no much outings available thou i am entering army soon..
lying around at home makes me feel like a worm waitin for time to pass while i grow larger everyday by wriggling around..

thinking abt how young i am and incapable i am has always made me feel sad all the while.. i expect too much things from myself maybe.. but there's so many others who could do what i am currently unable to do of.. in a way. i really feel that i suck..
im losing hope in myself gradually..
i feel that i lost the vibe in singing again..
the feel to sing a song with emotions into it.. simply im unsure of whats going to me either..
can only allow time to unviel what i am going to be like tt.. i hate this.. im someone who love to make my on future.. and nt let the future wrap itself around me.. hmm..

sorry dear.. i know u dun like me to write such emo things.. but dear.. im really feeling rather down now too.. so sorry..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 2:41 PM