hmmm wondering who will be reading this blog after some time.. hahas but its time to blog my daily emotions once again..

from previous week i shall say.. hmm..

one saturday,
went for performing group auditions.
it wasn't very well done that time.. i was in thru using the song.. 寂寞是临睡前的习惯 for the 1st round.. jj lao shi pressed the bell halfway thru the song.. i tot i crapped the whole audition.. but i entered the 1st round! ~~

then.. was given to choose songs, and i stupidly chose a song with weird 拍子and a lot of words one.. haiz. crapped out.. having to understand and memories the lyrics will tend to improve one's confidence in the performance of the song.. yet i nv get to memorise.. so did shane.. and it did a very big impact on him.. while i still try to mumble some words through.. >.>

hmm.. i felt bad tt day. for that we both did badly.. and yet only i get thru the auditions into pg.. i think they saw something in me which i had yet to find in myself i suppose. hmm..

nvm! since im in means i nid to work double the hard to nt make ppl look down on me and try to nt throw the faces of those who selected me to enter!!

then.. there came the exams of the 4th term in lwssom.. wei song laoshi came to inspect our standard of singing and grade us.. haiz. i couldn't do well.. there was some mental barrier in me while i wasn't able to slp well the day b4. thanks to my brother who koped all my pillow and bolster leaving me a hard bed to slp on.. and most of all. i couldn't listen to the background music well at all.. haiz. but i cannot use it as an excuse. just 不服气 that i nv did my best for the day when it came for performance.. even thou i passed the test. i felt that i lost in my heart...
and i saw an anime.. that guy was crying.. and he went to the tap water and wash his face.. (too bad it wasn't raining..) and i felt so too. haiz.. i am sad and dissapointed in me.. cuz i can't face the fact that i sucked out during exam.. haiz...

den today... i went for work in swensons once again.. while my whole mind is still singing.. when i walk around to look for customers to service them their orders/food and everything.. im humming the songs.. when im behind near the side i will sing slightly louder abit.. aha.. singing is in my heart body and soul!! while walking back i tried to sing again.. and cuz it wasn't having anyone beside in the late night. i screamed the whole song thru and sang a rather high pitch.. and i was trying to use different parts of vocals to sing.. falsetto, headvoice , chestvoice.. and middle voice.. hmmm rather cool that i kno i can do all this.. but nid to be more aware of how singing works for me is more impt.. haiz.. if wanna talk abt improvement.. its time to do something... if nt someone is gonna overtake me in pg.. =(

okay enuff for lwssom singing stuffs..

time to talk abt nyp soundcard..
ok..
its a club abt pop singing..

rather cool heh... okay.. in a way im a vocal instructor there.. and somehow i think i have more experience in performing than the people there. tats why i get to become a vocal instructor bah.. but i can't use anything from lwssom.. if nt it wud be copy righted stuffs.. so i haf to teach from wad i understand from my side of view.. and nt from what i get and learnt from lwssom..

last thurs. was a training for them... there is a lot of very gd singers in the club. i WOWed after nt listening to so much people for a long time.. its another eye opener for me again.. okay.. there's a lot of gd voice in this world. but how to make urself wanted by others? is also another gd qns..

somehow i nid to understand more abt myself too. hmm.. and one thing.. both.. jj and ws laoshi said i sing my mouth will look wierd.. hahas.. i nid to look at the mirror more!! thats what they told me to.. and to kno how to smile properly.. hmmm.. work out million dollars smile.. rather cool heh.. haha..

okay its gd to find a place to write down feeling and sorts.. hmmm work work work.. think think think.. thats what i can do now.. >.>

nono.. SING SING SING!!!! =D

and r/s side.. hmmm... i shall still be looking and waiting bah.. i duno how to feel in love again yet.. still hiding in the streets of the heart.. =s hahas.. somehow random thought =X

hmmm... shall post again another day!! bbb~~

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:16 AM