as usual.. i was pang seh-ed by them today.. again.. i couldn't feel happy at all.. every smile i have here, couldn't last more than 10 mins.. i had, no happy dreams at all.. thou im alrdi living in a nightmare anyone wouldn't wanna live in.

maybe i should just give up on trying to blending in.. i kept on getting blended by painful actions that are as sharp as knifes..
i couldn't find a gd reason.. a really gd reason for that i can sustain this pain.. why am i doing this foolish action. i dun wanna be a saint...

i need.. not just a pair of ears, eyes.... my tears rolled down my face like rain, without hesitation.. my heartaches, just like my soul is being pierced by the winds of blizzards in the north..

haiz.. i dun wan to do this anymore... can i turn into a cold hearted person who lives on like nothing had happened? i reali hate what is going on... help me someone.. help me..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 6:45 PM