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Thursday, January 29, 2009

today.. i did something.. irrevertible..

i actually forgot things that are nt suppose to be forgotten..

ok.. i can't take any form of excuse for things that i've done.. and im speechless about it..

sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..
sorry my dear dear..

=(

i know i can't be forgiven.. but i'm still hoping for it..

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hope u guys know what im trying to mean.. i admit.. i'm an imperfect guy.. and somewhat rotten too.. but i know i do love u. and its serious..
*

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:06 PM

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

cool day passed by..

today's my mother's birthday.. =)

happy another bdae to u mum.. =x thou i nv did that and say that to u haha =x

hmmm..

today had a long long day.. tiring one..

walked in the morning and today.. our walk is surprisingly fast.. extremely fast.. ridiculusly fast.. =(..

and.. accidently hit by a friend.. >.> rather.. a big blow to my chest.. a direct hit ahz..
a feeling so sudden i couldn't react.. it felt like i got frozen in time suddenly.. it wasn't really painful.. but it felt.. like im surged by a large voltage through me.. and my tear just came out.. i dun think my body had enuff time to react to the pain i recieved.. >.<

and the whole day down due to walkin at the ridiculusly fast spd.. i declare that i aint feeling superbly alright.. feeling a bit weak.. but still managable =)

well.. today ended rather abruptly at camp.. had a crapped test which i somehow crapped up.. hope tmr will do a lot better and hope i can do well and get a B grading and recieve the honour of having a half day!! =)

not to forget to mention..
*dear dear~!!! take care of urself ahz =(*

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:08 PM

Sunday, January 25, 2009

happy new year eve to many people around me..

from what i heard.. this year is rather good luck compared to the previous year for ME.. a dragon year boy.

and for today.. i had a number of rather shocking news and time to rethink many things again.. and maybe time to impose the thoughts i have for myself and a stricter time to make myself bz again..

1stly.. my dad's pay got cut from our own family business.. for no gd reason.. while my dad is like the main and only person that tries the hardest when it comes to work.

2ndly.. my dad din get to recieve the annual bonus either..

3rdly.. my brother din get it either and because of him rather.. cuz he got a whole lot of $$ to make payment for the house he getting in the febuary..

and hmmm.. it made me had the thought of like nt taking any ang pao from my ah gong and throw it back at him and walk out of the house sia.. and i am damn serious about it now..

but i think its stupid to throw back the rather huge amount bahz.. let see if he did drop the amount of ang pao $$ for me liao..

if he did nxt yr he is gonna see me gif him special presents that only those under the ground

tends to get..

this kind of ridiculus actions that din think of how others look at him is retarded.

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okay back about myself.. its hmmm.. thinking about what my brother said.. i do wanna learn japanese.. i wanna learn piano too.. but with that keyboard i have at home.. that sucks and the sound damn wrong one.. that i dislike duno what after some time.. i'll earn one on my own and have the lessons started anyways by my own means too..

another thing.. how i am gonna carry it out..

i tend to reach home like around 7 most of the times.. alright.. i'll put this obviously strict..

no more games during week days.. one week at least 4 hours of self studying japanese with the notes i have... within the coming 3 weeks i have to memorise at least all of the hiragana words that are available for me to learn..

and to earn $$.. i shall continue be thinking ways too.. as i did promised myself.. and carry out my plans i had..

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ahh.. this weekend is rather.. heavy for me.. i am nt gonna spend much time with my dear either..
a bit sian diao.. but have to get along with it.. =(

*im missing the times i have you puttin ur cheeks on my arm and my face... >.>*

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 4:10 PM

Thursday, January 22, 2009

another few days to chinese new yr..

my dear girl had her hair permed.. =)

super cute..

like a doll!!!! hahas.. and i like it XD

so far in camp this few days have been having the course..

okay im like enjoying the days there.. indeed its paradise.. cuz i have yet to come across any of the work which is in other camps the technicians have to complete their task and to repair loads of cars and getting themselves super dirty and oily everyday..

hmmm.... but however.. i must admit that its really fun in that place OETI..

today.. somehow.. since ytd.. my chest pain somehow.. keep on making me feel some dull pain in the chest.. hmmm.. at least now im feeling no pain.. since the time i sit down and not moving around too fast..

now better le =)

and im so looking forwards for time to pass asap!! >.<

*i am missing dear dear.. =(*
can i pray for the time to pass by faster mah.. pls pls??

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:28 PM

Thursday, January 15, 2009

a day at the fire fighting and 1st aid learning again..

some wad awareness of the dangers in the public.. rather lame.... =x

hmmm.. spent some time with my dear dear after her work ended today....

somehow din get any dinner at all cuz both of us dun feel like eating yet and cuz im rather full and yet dear dear got gastric pains and till it become rejecting food le.. haiz.. =((

hmmm.. made dear dear unhappy due to me falling aslp and nt TRYING to be awake by setting alarm clock has begun to make her unhappy.. thou it wasn't de 1st time.. to girls maybe it might be rather big a problem.. but im seriously trying my best to gif u all my attention le..

i can only try to cure this problem and to adjust some things and thinkings. but i hope dear dear u can understand and accept for things and what i am right now too..
*missing you all the times... but im sure there are times you ask asking yourself... "is HE really thinking of me?*
i dun wan this to be a problem nor anything to obstruct your emotion eitherways.. pls dun let things get in the way because of such things.. they are NOT worthed being a problem to affect our relationship..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:36 PM

Sunday, January 11, 2009

a slp-less night ytd..... >.>

think i slpt for around 5 hours maybe?? hmmm don't wanna think about it any further..

had swenson's breakfast meal today with dear dear as she came over my place today =))

as usual time together is forever sweet.. xD

the breakfast meal is nt bad btw.. but rather oily.. a bit heavy for a breakfast.. should be suitable for eurasians but nt for asians bah..

hmmmm.. for lunch.. din had much things.. =x cuz the breakfast rather heavy.. and hmmm went down to city link for walk to see see look look at dear dear de clothings.. ended up spending lots of $$ onto one shop.. around 14x for 5 pieces of clothings... this shop is like.. SO fittin for dear to get her clothes... wonderful to walk around city link once in a while.. time to start walking around again..

and then when its time to go for lesson today.. hahas.. dear dear was inside the studio recording the whole time.. and i suppose i got no mood to carry on act like a normal student inside.. just feeling happy cuz of the mood of having dear around me! =x

hmmm.. finish recording.. HARMONIZING in recording is tough job ahz. >.>

hmmm.. back to her place.. saw some fei lun hai thingys.. quite interesting... wad stomach air and bloatness and some stomach flu maybe im nt sure of it.. hmmm.. true for me.. but i suppose my stomach is needing more attention bahz =x

hmmm.. thats all for today.. >.<

*thanks dear for the belt!! its nice.. XD i love it so much.. but i love you more!! =x*

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:25 PM

Saturday, January 10, 2009

ok hmmm..

something i'll wanna post it up =)

i wanna make a blog shop if possible.. lets see if it shall work out =)

idea will be.

theme based of females dressings.

from top to toe if possible....

and try to make up a talk site if possible.. the concept is something of like where people go there to post comments and introductions of products they bought and why they like or dislike that thing and let all kind of people that gets to see it know abt their existance and what does it do to them.. e.g. a kind of perfume that's gd and and maybe reasonable pricing but somehow it crapped up and wishes to complain something abt it?? =x

today.. went out with dear dear!!! >.>

ahhh somehow lost one plaster =x sian.. tot my plaster in wallet wun be so lonely le =x

hmmm.. and tmr is sunday soon.. another day to get pass by once again...

hahas. hope i din forget how to swim btw.. =x

missing someone in process too >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:50 PM

Sunday, January 04, 2009

spent my new year with dear dear. at clark quey in the end.. okay.. sat on an area which was so crapped that both me and my dear gets to see just mere portion/fraction of the fireworks. and jerry commented. "at least u heard the fireworks blowing off..." omg. thanks for that.. lols.. >.<

but then.. a new yr with dear dear is something that happened and better than anything i could ask for isn't it? hahas.. * everyday seems like a holiday when im being with my dear happily as i could feel her beside me and she loves my accompany =)*

new yr resolutions to be made. =)

i've came up with some some time back... hehes..

hmmm.. i came up with such a thought.. that i read much about from the book i've been reading on.

everything humans does is cuz of 2 factors. what we do. for pleasure, and pain..

its because we love the pleasure of spending $$ that is the force that push us to work. but we then we fear the pain of having insufficient $$ that we work too.. when both of them comes together. it makes us go to work. right? =)

so. i need to find out the pleasure and pain that makes me seriously push myself hard enough that i will do things more seriously and nt acting as lazy as i am. anyone. help me pls? =)

and.. hmmm.. another thing.. i need to be making myself more useful to people. so that they will need me more often. that itself makes it a value. that people will cherish me more than they already are.. that not only includes to my dear. but to my friends too.. so that in return. i could then ask for things or help when i seriously need... from those that can supply me my needs =)

hmmm.. in deep thought now =)

gdnites soon~

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:46 PM