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Thursday, October 30, 2008

ahh.. another few days passed by..

now number one main thing.. i nid to get into MDC.. i nid to get xfer-ed there!!!

i nid to practise up my songs..

be it if its english songs.. if i am supposed to go there.. im gonna maximise my abilities.. since i have the time to right? =)

fast songs and doing sports is nt a choice for me now.. even short distance running is like a taboo to me.. or else someone will get so angry.. and end up worrying and finally sad..

haiz. sorry.

finally friday is coming.. =) weekend is here!!!!!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:22 PM

Monday, October 27, 2008

the long weekend ended..

hmmm.. looking back, my flu nv really full cure.. its still there.. zzzzzz....

and for my chest pain.. hmm.. can say this week its somewhat getting lesser everyday.. the attacks don't seem to come as much for these past few days.. thou one of the day had a lot of atks =x but its over! =)

and dear leh.. nv really get well yet.. still so scared of cold. dear de weakness!! freezy things.. but hahas. im always warm.. so im nt her weakness.. and instead, her source of power..

hmmm.. carrying on with the day..

hahas met up dear at the mrt, while thinking we might be late.. well im there early but late to reach there cuz of .... unforseen circumstances haha! =x

and met up with dear dear, sh, yy. and then rachel, weizhen, junpei, and many blah blahs i duno de name sorry • many times =x

and then.. CHEN LIANG actually overslept.. can see that's he is too tired to attend lah.. so much things to do too.. >.>

and people famous le.. hope he can get far into his dreams.. =)

hmmm as for the food!! thanks for the treat =)

i had 木瓜牛奶米粉加猪扒 wonder did i spell wrongly haha!! my chinese is nt very gd.. thou nt bad.. but just plain normal ability with chinese.. haha! =x
and back to the food wise.. i like the soup a lot!! =) and the papaya is omg~ sweeeet~~!!! =) but a little salty... yet.. its nice and im able to finish it up anywayz!!

and dear had some black pepper steak, nt bad taste.. rather sweet sauce for the black pepper.. and~~ rather high protein, meat meat meat~!! =x
then yy had some maggi mee with luncheon + egg.. seems simple and he said its plain.. hmm.. im more interested with different taste kinds of food!! =x
den for sh. a curry with bread.. rather thick taste =) quite nice.. and dear took some.. =.= hope and pray tonight she wun feel unwell to be slp ahh =(
and for rachel is some western too~~ bread with egg and ham.. hahas.. looks simple.. and perfectly fine for her appetite i suppose!! =)

and then almond papaya.. looks gd... taste.. burnt.. rather weird.. a bit of torturing to see dear stuffing it into her mouth >.< luckily it does taste sweet... if nt dear will 100% feel bad.. hahas..

and.. hmmm.. the long weekend finally ended.. hmmm.. time to work again.. tmr to working again!!! hope i can get sufficient rest tonight.. if nt my flu kick up again tmr i go see doc liao.. =X
>.< and for that, will be the 2nd time i'm even RSO.. so little right.. see i so guai =)

tickle tickle tickle!! =)

loves my super cute dear.. loves to call her lao po~ =x but make dear feel old like tt.. maybe time to come i'll use it~ hahas =x

hope my warmth and pass down to dear.. i don't need it that much.. cuz i dun like to be HOT!! >.<>

and dear needs to be more warm.. dear too afriad of cold le =(
nid to learn how to take care ahz..
*muacks*

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:21 PM

haiz. something nt right. i don't seem to be able to take my sleep well ytd night..

something is sooo wrong..

hmmm..

=( been missing dear~ >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 8:37 AM

hmm another day passed by.. today de time together with dear dear.. is slightly lesser..

dear say she had an unlucky day today.. lets ignore the unhappy parts..

hahas. but i said seeing me will make dear happy de!! and as predicted.. hahas =)
*right dear? =X cuz i can bring happiness everywhere around u!

and hmm.. met up with sh and yy.. hahas. i gave yy some qns to ponder abt himself how he should try to have a reason to hope for a tmr. which will bring him a future after the tmr and many tmrS after the present he is in now..

hmmm.. had a heels thats suitable found.

and gd. dear quite like it.. its plain.. but plain.. is something neat.. and neat is nice!! =)
confidence brings out u when u wear something.. u dun make confidence into your shoes and make them wear u right? =)

hmm.. met up with tuck hong.. and zhi yuan... and its super saddening to see both of them smoking..

its a sad thing.. when i heard from tuck hong yrs back that even he thinks that smoking is bad. and still he started to smoke le...

conclusion.. some people knows something is bad. YET they will still try to do it. =(

some people are just so.. sad... learn to hold your meanings of your words..

ahh.. and den went to drink drink.. end up yy emo-ed and started to drink quite a lot and words start to come out rather...... ehem..

hmmm.. dear nids to have better slp!! =(
i nid one too i suppose.. haha! but think tonight will slp super long. cuz i think im rather exhausted le. =x
tonight shall be for both of us to rest well!!!!

i wan a happy and smily dear!!
*shy one is super cute too =X*

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 2:59 AM

Sunday, October 26, 2008

hmmm.. eventful day again!!

dear came over.. morning din feel really good.. took medicine..

played with my nephew.. hahas he actually looked emo on my bed when he was staring blank into the mattress on the side..

slack till time to go out..

met up with dear de polymates.. bunch of funny people..

hahas.. apparently there's a couple that's left out.. and nt bcuz of either of them is left out.. is both of them seemed to be rather out of the picture... >.<

apparently the guy which is supposed to be with the clique seems to be distant from the group.. he nids to know how to handle his life and his friends around him.. =x

but!! hahas.. hafiz looks like a joker yet nv joke much.. rey looks super serious yets friendly.. cheng is funny and super protective to the gf too!! haha.. yihui looks rather calm kinda guy.. looks friendly + steady one.. alvin seemed to be too bz with his own thoughts all the time.. keisha. ok i duno how to spell.. she seems. ok i duno. haha! jia hao + gf. seems to be in their own world all the time =X

hmmm...

dear super happy todaY!! hahas =)

thats a super gd thing u know.~

and hmm.. dear nids to learn how to control the temptations to cold food le laaa >.> now coughing liao la see lah. (z_z)

hope dear dear will have a sweet dream tonight too!!

ur smiles lasted the whole day today.. tmr will be the same way too!! =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:45 AM

Saturday, October 25, 2008

had a wonderful day ytd.

a whole day of joy finally..

but i got exhausted real fast lately..

lack of proper slp i think? >.<

can't help it =(

body breaking down.

waitin for recovery..

hmm.. had a feast ytd night..

that's too much le.. cuz its accumulative one!!

ahh.. another day of heavy meals =S

keke. my dear is too cute le lah.. >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:43 AM

Thursday, October 23, 2008

不爽

okay. i dun think i haf much to say for today other than that.

and 2nd phrase..

Win Liao Lor....

if u think. or anyone thinks.. i did something damn wrong.. pls tell me now. thanks.. it will be gladly appreciated...

beginning to wonder..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:36 PM

Sunday, October 19, 2008

another weekend just ended..

don't really have much mood to blog much.. hmm..

dear came over today.. slacked around till we left my place to meet sh at orchard..

and my nephew bruce cried cuz of us leaving the hse without him again!! >.<

de sad face is so sadddd... filled with sadness.. but wad to do.. >.> we go out and he nv dun get to go out..

hmm.. had her favie ice cream.. hmm.. a bit of uneasiness and uncomfortable while eating ice cream today.. hmmm.. think im nt feeling well and unable to slp well ytd was for a gd reason. maybe my body aint feelin gd at all and i just din know.. hmmm..

( to dear..) truthfully.. the pain comes and goes away.. its almost all the while there de.. yahh.. like tt lor.. den i can sae.. one day randomly it feels painful at different kind of timings too.. =( so don't get to worried too much. or u will nv end worrying le.. =(

and and.. let me say wad i do will feel a bit weird or dizzy or breathing pains..

walking fast while talkin/ after taken meal.. pains a bit while breathing
coughing after feeling uncomfortable or trying to clear throat of phlegm.. same pain
sneezing applies too... same pain
climbing stairs feel dizzy spells for 1-3 secs..
running wun feel weird.. after that breathing might/might nt feel pain/dizzy..

normally it wun last very long.. some time 10 mins.. some times 1-3 mins.. sometimes super fast or slow.. random de..

hmmm.. conclusion. dun get too bothered abt it.. i'll say if there's a need to.. =) or u wan me wad thing oso say.. just let me kno.. i'll let dear know as much as u can k..

eh.. hope dear will still get to enjoy her ice cream when she needs to =)
i'll stop having it lahz >.> i know my part and wad i am supposed to do..

i don't like to see you having tears of pain or unhappiness...
your tears are meant for gd memories and joy..
don't waste them k.. =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:05 PM

ahhh.. fell ill again.. =/

ytd nv really do much things.. i think.. my memory not working very well now.. =/

brain dying due to exhaustion now too.. haha! =x

ahh.. hmmm.. comments abt my body..

eh.. not really recovering from the chest pain. hope it will gradually get better as time comes..

apparently its still no gd.. today compared to the whole week. today a lot of times of the painful feeling comes up..

hmmm.. there's something i wanna say.. its painful to see u getting in pain..
its so painful to see your tears dropping..
even thou its nt me which caused it. or if its gonna be me that caused it..
i wanna be there to make and see u smiling.. thats the sweetest thing i can ever get de..

i suppose im recovering from flu liaos.. starting to feel better a bit.. but i still feel rather dizzy one.. somehow still a bit gong gong hahas.. but!! recovering = very gd le =)

like this and one weekend pass by ler..
i'm thinking how to get to study leh.. i wanna get into U.. i think i'll wanna get into business course.. i'll wanna do my own business and make sure things goes well.. lets see how things gonna work.. i'll do my planning properly!! =)

as for singing wise.. back in pg le.. i think i am nt as well as compared to previously where i sing a lot and practise a lot.. now im like.. somewhat foreign to singing ler.. must get it back.. hahas..

hope i dun lose my ability to sing yet..

i'll wanna sing nicely to dear too de!! to be able to make everyone touched by my voice.. even if im nt gonna be a gd singer.. i'll still wanna be able to convey messages of feelings and emotions to everyone that will be able to listen to my voice!! hahas =x

alright.. that's all for today.. reflection of the day..

its time i do something abt plannings.. hahas =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:25 AM

Thursday, October 16, 2008

eh... another day spent at home.. resting properly today.. hahas =)

hmm.. slacking at home and playing with nephew while played some games of dota.. XD

missing dear.. thinking what dear is doing from time to time.. >.<

and hmm.. dear nt happy mood today de.. tried to surprise her by going to taka to buy venezia ice cream.. but that choco mint flavor sold out!!!! angriieeee!!!! ROAR!! zzzzz.. pek cek diaozz.. hate this feeling zzz...

haiz.. end up meeting dear den just send dear home like tis lor.. T.T
haiz pai seh ah.. end up wasting effort and feeling sianed..
end up dear haf to comfort me for my down diao de feelings..

ahh.. indulging myself in songs again!! =)
hope my life would be better.. >.<>.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:38 PM

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

ahh.. a day of my bdae.

15.10.08

ok. nice date to spend for the 1st time of my whole life i actually recieved a lot presents for my bdae!! gratz to myself.

hahas. a nice day to be spent with my gf. =)

dear is super sweet lahhh.. where to find such a gd gf rite.. 10am alrdi met me up at my place.. >.<

hmmm.. today super slpy.. nt very energetic..

and body failing. a bit of fever earlier.. >.> and yet i din kno =X

hahas..

hmmm..

had dinner with yy + sh + dear of cuz..
at pizza hut.

hmm.. and had a lot of food!! and a ending meal with a bdae cake of cuz.. hahas. and then after that got my present.. a jacket i last time saw in ripcurl~ they gave me as present.. >.< its nice ahz =)

nt bad ahz. quite gd.. and finished the dinner faster rush home to rest up liaoz.. >.<

super tired siaa.. >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:55 PM

Monday, October 13, 2008

hmm.. another day has passed..

rather a. lesson learnt. how boring one can get..

OETI = Only Eat, Talk & Idle... cool rite? =x

but a boring place actually.. hahas.. hope i get to enjoy my time there till i get to MDC bahz.. >.>

makes me think of dear more.. >.<
thanks to all de free time i get. =x

wonder what dear is doing now. she nv reply me msn super long ler. =s

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:59 PM

Sunday, October 12, 2008

hi all. long time no post le

i had a nice time with dear lately.. i bet dear missed me too much. and made dear worried too much for me.. duno how much tears had come out from her eyes just for my sake..

the bdae celebration is super gd!! i love dear de presents. hahas.. actually.. u are the best present i could ever have.. i nv had such a feeling of being treasured by someone. its a super sweet feeling.. im so touched my tears actually fell down now by just thinking back.. i really appreciate all the things u did. =) dear ur de best!! >.<

dear is super gd le.. u did very well to make me happy.. what dear did so far is sweet, its sincere, i appreciate it. and i know how u feel for me. i feel like im no where gd either. especially with my body like this and my mind thinking wrongly.. i hope u get what i meant. hahas.. since that day b4 entering army i've been feeling bad over that thing.. hmm.. till now.. maybe i still feel a bit weird.. but! i hope i nv do anything wrong so far, and i really wish for dear to smile and be de cutest and happiest whenever your time is spent with me =)

all i could do for dear so far is only making you worry.. i oso duno wads wrong with my body why is it failing.. im sorry.. but i'll be fine in time.. so no worries!!

i won't leave u. NOT YET. for that. i promise =)
and i know dear will make sure my promise come true too right?

i got OOT-ed le.

thanks to some heart problem..

ok. dear has been worrying for some time..

time to expose everything to everyone..

i think i know what and why i will get to feel pain. cuz i used the wrong way too breathe when i 1st ran some super far distance and continous way to run.. hmmm.. and i know what i injured..

my heart.. i feel like its getting weaker + painful lately.. hmm but i'll be fine. definitely.

dear nothing much to worry..

but truthfully. im experience weak faint spells when i try to walk faster while talking + running/walking up the stairs + taking heavy stuffs to move around + anything of moving with constraining my chest muscles.

been a bit more emo. hahas. cuz im nt feeling very well.. sometimes i can't feel my pulse of my heart.. im afraid to leave dear only.. hmm..

and mum tried to ask to see some priest/monk..

wow. my mother oso nv know abt how im feeling that person actually know whats wrong with me and know how my pain is coming from too.. and say im nt feeling very well.. hahas.

well.. there's nothing to hide now le. i know im tired. i know i can stop breathing for some time without feeling any thing wrong. hahas.. scary i know.. but hmm.. i nid to live on.. =) there's simply too much things i nid to hang on and live forward for.

i want my 7 yrs to come.
i want to sing more songs for dear.
i want to have childrens with her for us to live longer together.
i want to wake up having dear beside me!! >.<>

and. the talks i always have with u, its nt something that is 不切实际的 all comes from within my heart.. im nt doing and saying things cuz i like to cheat people feelings.
what i say and do. seriously comes from within my heart.. hope dear really understands.
i will wanna marry dear some day de. just. im weak now. i know. i'll learn. i'll improve. i'll be better.. thats my wish list of my life..

[dear i love you lots]

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:41 PM

Sunday, October 05, 2008

ok, another time to book in today.

dear came over today.. =)

i still am feeling weak. hahas. nt as warm as i am suppose to be normally.. >.<

DFC can make it one. im sure of it =)

dear. pls take care of urself. try nt to drink so much cold drinks when especially into the evening ahz. ur face looks like suffering a lot of pain lor.. =(

and pls. i really dun mean it that way when i said that "go die lahz" seriously regret loads when i speak such words accidently.. no matter how much u believe me anot. i'm serious..

booking in again. boredom shall start to surround my life again liaoz!! sian.. >.<

ahz... im missing u again right now... so fast. hahas.. >.> dear. thanks for the time spent with me so till now. cya again nxt week!! hehe.. =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 6:16 PM

Saturday, October 04, 2008

had myself out of training for quite a number of days,
missing the time i had fun together with my bunk mates and the whole platoon..

a crap song i/c as well as a platoon ic i had with the time i had inside this funny platoon with funny mates of all sorts..

people says that after someone enters into army their character changes. perhaps mine grown weaker looking at myself and my body weakening gradually..

the pain nv ended everyday.
had one day that i woke up in the middle of the night nt long ago due to a sudden sharp pain on the chest again liao. =(

and im missing my girl so much cuz she nv get to rest well due to her sudden asthma attack after getting in the rain.. make me worry so much.

why must we be so unhealthy at the same time. and my body is nt turning wel.. my stomach dun seem to working properly at the same time too.. wonder is my upper body getting problems or wad. =x

had been singing a lot lately in the bunk.. missing the times i get to sing a lot at home/ lws singing lessons.

needs a lot of chances to go back lwssom to sing!!

i want my time to enjoy/work to earn $$

dear. im gonna get something for u. hahas. im sure u know it too. and i kno dear will wanna know what kind of thing u will get from me too right? but i nid some time hahas. lately i no time to go out alone to shop ya. =X but i'll still want my time together with u too..

hmmm.. im missing u lots in the army. now got hp ler. can hear ur voice. at least wun cry. heart wun pain so much.

and hmm.. i know u said all guys might be like tt.. normally expecting others to do it and not expecting self to do something. hmm.. its a tendacy to expect from others and forget that they are nt the exclusive people. humans make errors. let them know and gradually change along the way one. =)

hmmm.. and hahas.. dear. =)
stay healthy. i know i am suppose to stay healthy too.. i'll rest up and make my body grow stronger gradually.. at least something i will wanna make it come true. i wan my 7 yrs latr de !!! >.<

im anticipating the day i get to share my warmth with u de moment i wake up with my eyes on u and my shoulder by urs on the side too! hehe. and.. thanks for the time u spent with me. i know it is very super trouble for u.... and im nt really happy abt it and is somewhat bothered too.. haiz. im weak.. but i'll recover... den that time u got no reason to nt allow me send u home ler.. dear i love u lots ahhhh.. army is wasting my time (this conclusion nv stopped). =x!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:23 PM

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

ah. another day of booking out.

tiring times in army..

im OOT-ed. a bit sad. cuz im like an extra now.

wonder whats wrong with my body. dun seem to understand.

since im alrdi OOT-ed liao.

hope i will get to nt redo another BMT. cuz redoing the confinement is a torture to nt only me but my dear girl too =(

just keep it simple pls =(

dear so nice de. always come fetch me. den go home alone. makes me feel so bad all the time..

wonder whats wrong with me lately. the times she wanna go off. im always feeling unwell.. that makes me a bit lethargic to send her home. why so suay one. when i alrdi feel bad. makes me feel worse.. =(

well. today is our 2nd month officially together.. it will turn into a sweet memory of us being together definitely =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:35 AM