Thursday, March 31, 2005

hmm.. time.. has come to let go and pick up where things left off....................

dear.... that was the word where we use to communicate mostly.. hmm.. i nvr told u thi b4.. so i want to let u know if u r reading now... "dear, i love u.. although i know its too late.. so take care... =D
hmm i finally understood one thing.. if.. thing is meant to b.. it will defintely happen.. i dun blame u for all the things that happened.. it was all meant to b.. haha..

hmm.. today i was having a headache!!! hmm.. but soon.. it was ok ler.. haha.. during that time.. i was on fone wif her.. at 1st.. i was real happi... but den.. i understood that it was juz a normal call.. no meaning..

and as we chatted slowly.. i slowly let things go ler.. i understood that she has her life.. and i had mine.. i haf to continue... no matter how.. i will b hanchuan i am from the start.. as u changed mi into a better person.. i know that.. and im sure.. u know that.. i know wad shud i do.. and wad i shud not do..

for the final part.. haha.. people... pls.. if u ever haf someone u reali liked.. pls let him.her know.. dun b like mi.. too late ler.. den regret.. hmm.. no matter wad happens!! life haf to continue!!!!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:23 PM

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Pain and pain and again..

i nvr online for few days.. i simply felt cold and loneliness... i kept thinking of her for many days.. it juz nvr ended the misery of mi without mi gf.... i miss her more and more.. the feeling of body aching.. is coming back again.. this is the 2nd time i m feeling this.. joints of my body hurts too.. haiZ.. i reali wonder... did anione other than mi felt that b4? and... i got a dream.. wif her.. she asked mi wad i wanted... and i couldn't gif her and ans in there.. but i found the ans.. u are the one and onli i would want to b wif.. & i juz want to b wif u.. that is the ans.. and i nvr want to forget a single past i had wif u.. everything in this world that form will fade one day.. but not memories... especially nice ones.. haiZ.. even though im sad now.. but i choose to remember u and the happi times.. not the unpleasant ones.. y didn't u understand that from the start?? i got back the friendship band that i once lost.. hoping our relationship dun juz end like that.. i m not a person who gives up easily.. but im weakening.. losing hope and confidence everyday.. ouchie... >.< hurts my heart every single day..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:11 PM

Friday, March 25, 2005

hmm..for the 1st time in the whole day i nvr think of u...

ha.. it was so fun.. i went to frens hse to stay over a night... and it was real fun... we played Ps2 thru out the night... and we talked abt everything... guys.. girls.. and many many more.. hahah.. hmmm and then they talked abt mi ex.. and they said she was in the wrong.. i nvr approve nor accept that... juz taking it as a listener.... hmm... den i went hm.. so nice.. after bathing.. i slept like a worm.. wake up move around den lie back.. if not.. sleep around 2 hrs... den wake up.. den sleep again.. hahahahaha... im entring a different stage of my life.. hmm.. and then.. i went for a concert.. hmm.. thou it was short.. it was nice.. hahaha... 45 mins comcert leh... quite a small group of students.. they presented their hard work within 45 mins.. and the result was shown.. that they were hard working students.. and thou i do not understand wad kind of language they were talkin.. i m still sumone who listens to songs a lot.. and i know that.. they were talented people.. haha.... cuz i m sure.. their pronunciation of vocals as well is precision in timing wif the piano tunes is very nciely done.. hm... and i enjoyed a lot... so did my fren terrance.. haha.. and when we both saw how the girl choir members dressed up... it was an impression of fairies... and the most of all.. many are cute.. hahaha.. and a ery artistic name of the room.. "A living Room" wow.. isn't that amazing? haha.. i was having lot of fun and amazement by the performance.. hope i get to see more of this ind of things.... ^^ gd day!!!! come to think of it.. i didn't reali get bothered abt the girl that was in my mind for many days... haha...... so happi.. ^^

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:49 PM

Thursday, March 24, 2005

i reali wished.. many times i will b in a nice dream.. and nvr wake up..

last night.. i went to stay at fren hse overnight.... den he was trying to talk abt mi and my that ex.. haiZ.. for the 1st time i nvr tear when talkin abt her.. it is so sad one lor.. y muz i b lost for words when people say abt mi and her..
ur face nvr seemed to dissappear from my brain.. and i can't find a thing to do to forget u.. y.. i dunno how.. is this wad the kind of punishment heaven muz put it on mi? my pain has returned.. pls juz dun make mi fall sick again.... i dun wanna feel lost again.. wad will b the mi of tmr.. i dunno if how i m goin to continue living every day..
ouch u know.. im so hurt every night... haiZ.. will u know? sad... T.T

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:27 PM

Monday, March 21, 2005

i think.. i found the answer..

i still couldn''t stop thinking of her... it hurts.. will she know.. i've been tryin real hard to shake her out of my head.. goin out wif other girls.. doing many thins that i like.. goin out for a sweat-it-out bball.. nothing seems to help at all.. i do miss u.. and i miss u a lot.. do u?? haiZ.. if i had recieved a big pillowed sized hamtaro like the one i gave to u.. it would b so nice... so very nice.. haiz.. so that i could hug it everytime.. cuz i know is u gif mi one... and i think i've changed.. i will go and bother abt it so much.. i know i can't shake that thought of u out of my head.. so i will juz live wif it.. but i... lost u... and it will nvr b retrieved.. ouchiee... cuz.. i tried thinking of being wif other girls.. but i can't like them.. for how deep i like u.... there is a difference there.. i know... and i know time will heal.. but it isn't working out for mi... dear.. will i ever b able to call u dear again??..


Naruto is very very nice these days.. i like them reali a lot.. although it is juz a fantasy world.. it reflects how a person can b reflected in the real world.. and how u shud treasure ur loved ones... haha.. juz go www.narutofan.com and DL a file.. u will love it definintely...

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:28 AM

Monday, March 14, 2005

lives change future reveals..

times had changed... and u were not mine animore.. i do miss u a lot.. do u know?? it has been one month and 2 daes ler... i dun wish to keep tings like the ways it is.. but it has alreadi became a past.. i kept the things u gave to mi into a box i kept for a long time.. it will b the box of memories that i will always haf forever.. tears roll down from the cheeks from time to time.. i nvr know u will affect mi so much.. giving up is not wad i always do.. i haf my heart only for u.. T.T
i dun understand one thing.. my luck to meet up wif girls are better know days.. but i dunno how to talk to them when they are appearing in front of mi.. and i will go clumsy.. ='( haiZ.. gd bye.. i will post again latr.. T.T

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 3:16 PM