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Thursday, November 27, 2008

我只想，你我就这样幸福，一直到老

very sleepy lately..

down with a lot of unhealthy germs/virus inside me!!!

making me lethargic almost all of the time!!!

i need to buck up on singing once again.. im losing all the things i've learnt for nt singing much around 2 mnths..

thats rather lethal.. =(

hmmm..

and dear dear.. >.<
need to take care of ur leg.. and ur body pls =(
time to welcome the end of the yr!!

dun let it overwhelm you with work.. its time to learn how to appreciate yourself and people around you!!~~ =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:30 PM

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

hmmm.. 2 days just passed by like tis.. ytd was boring.. nothing much happened..

helped shit jobs thats all.. and hahas.. its a gd time to slp lately.. >.<

but lacking of slp lately.. and im getting heaty.. need help to turn down my temperature!! =(

hmm..

abt today leh.. hahas.. time passed by as usual that kind of spd.. and finally i get my audition date =)

this coming saturday and the coming saturday after that too!!~~ =)

and im prepared!!!

with 很想你最长的电影离开地球表面 if i can do well enuff to perform it...

but i heard oni nid to sing once and ask me to act and try to act and try to dance too.. hahas..

i'll show my passion in everything!! =)

today dear dear came.. =)

spice and wolf.. a nice show~~ recommended to all!!!

and dear dear had gastric pain till going home le den tell me one.. after asking and asking..

zzz.. dear not honest le. =(

sadded..

dear dear.. i love you!!
and im missing dear dear again lerz.. haiz..
miss you miss you miss you miss you miss you!!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:32 PM

Sunday, November 23, 2008

been bz this few days..

either bz stoning.. or bz goin out.. or bz talkin to my dear girl..

hmmm..

time has passed by so soon..

been around 3 mnths since entering army..

and being around tt amt of time since i got myself into a r/s

should be asking myself and ppl of being inside r/s

this are things i often ask myself.. but sometimes i forgotten this too..

whats the reasons of u doing things for others??
eh. i dun do anything for anybody. oni for people i think worthed helping out..
whats the 1st reason why u told urself u love that person??
cuz i really do. and there's lots of reason to it.. but the most of all. its love, its unexplainable..cuz for what i love abt that person is. it is she who perfects me. without her.. im empty.
whats the reason by the end of the day u wish to see or get as a result of being with that person you love??
is to be able to be together be it understanding each other by any kinds of means like bickering and misunderstanding, as long as we are willing to accept how and what we are.. and to love what and who they are.. and to be able to embrace everything abt what they are and what they are nt.. that'll be the main thing of my life being in r/s =)

and dear.. i don't want anything to happen between us.. with everything that has gone so far..
anything you have in mind and nt telling to me.. im sure there's a reason.. but.. if its goin to painful to keep it to urself.. its always reasonable to share it out with me.. cuz.. if u are nt gonna tell me.. im just going towards to a level called.. a stranger..
cuz it will be like, every time a thing is kept from me.. will raise me a lvl to become a stranger.. and if it gets too much.. i'll be a total stranger by then.. better keep me near.. by telling me more abt u.. cuz this is me.. unless dear dear dun wish to accept me.. for this is who i am.. =)

hmmm.. the ending of the yr is coming.. i shall ask myself more qns by then.. which is.. what of me is different from the me of the previous yr.. cuz.. i only allow myself to improve and nt remain stagnant.. its life to improve. nt to decay only.. haha!~ =x

ok blog again nxt time.. =x

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:57 PM

Monday, November 17, 2008

today,

a rather down-ed day..

came to know that dear dear isn't feeling very well..

and myself i felt a new form of pressure on de body... its rather more painful form of pressure just now.. and i felt the gush of pressure up my head.. its new.. its dangerous.. i don't quite understand how to describe it.. hmm.. hope tmr the answers shall reveal themselves to me..

and then..

finally home and called dear up.. voice super down..

hmmm.. dear.. dun get so down.. its work.. don't bring them home.. don't let it interfere with ur life outside of ur work.. cuz outside of ur work.. u are a happy girl with a satisfied life goin on isn't it?? >.<

and abt ur toothache.. better take care.. keep on enduring the pain doesn't bring u anything gd.. dear dear nt gd at tolerating pain.. ur temper will fly up and down de.. dun flare up ahz.. >.<
patience oso de..

see how.. tmr after work find u.. its something i wanna do for dear dear de.. at least im assured u are feeling well..

and when i reached home today.. there's conflicts going on around in de hse..

people often have conflicts, but how can one attain a proper kind and ends up with a constructive result??

it depends on how "words" are used and what kind of toning is used in the conversation..
but firstly, what kind of state are they in so as they will speak in a happier and cheerful mood?? so that everything sounds pleasant??
on the other hand, being in an annoyed or a bad mood will cause every kind of small harmless comments sound like a sharp arrow shootin to their head blowing their temper off..

learn and observe if what kind of observation can be done to eleviate the mood 1st b4 speaking any kind of conversations that might occur multiple clashing views..

dear ahz...

try to get well ahz..

don't get urself into too much of pain..

let the weekdays pass by as normal as possible and think of how to handle the weekends to come!! =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:12 PM

Sunday, November 16, 2008

another day passed by..

another day to say the words again..
i love you
hahas =)

days passed by.. hmm..

felt pains here and there as usual..

tuesday is coming..

i'll finally be able to find out whats actually goin on wrong with my body.!!!

and im happy nv i get to end up in hospital b4 the day of specialist visit!! =)

dear dear knocked onto the bus handles just now.. must be super pain.. haiz.. better rub lightly on it till there's no bruise on it k.. if nt tmr super pain den jia lat le..

final thought... prays for the time to pass by like this all the while..

wondering am i turning soft..

i need you like water like sun like air..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:52 PM

Saturday, November 15, 2008

hmmm..

been days since i've last blogged..

ok.. i hate being to have only 400bucks a month..

it feels really really retarded..

today i felt a lot more pain that i nv felt anything ytd..

something is not right bahz.. =x

i'll start from wednesday..

i took mc for my tonsils actually feel unwell and its somewhat swollen, that's why i am having lots of phlegm + mucus.. they asked if i am feeling nausiatic.. ok im feeling some of it now.. time for me to take that medication liaoz..

i've been very nice taking a lot of medication everyday lor..
=(

i dun like being unwell/sick..

hmm.. ok thurs.. another boring day.. pass by boring-ly..

missing dear lots.. and dear missing me madly.. i can feel it too.. >.>

hahax.. i think dear start to think that if there's a comparison, in who loves each other more.. i think dear will think she loves me more liao.. like what i said from the start =X

then today.. hmmm.. was resting all the while till my mother went out and i had to help out a little bit with my nephew

he started to shit lah.. come in play wires lah.. climb here and there bringing out all the things in the cupboard lah.. and sort... very curious kid..

>.<

den dear dear emo-ed..

sad lor.. i nv mean to not reply dear de.. ahhh =(

felt very sad.. hmmm..
tears somewhat came out when she said she don't what to hear my voice..

den finally met up with dear dear.. finally get to see her smiling le.. "finally" =s

ok den went out with her.. had too much eating.. my breathing starts to hurt.. think my chest area is congested with unknown things.. >.<

apparently my rib cage is trying hard to give way to the expanding chest?? hmm..

here i am wondering too.. but luckily.. one and half hours later the discomfort went off.. den i believe i'll be able to recover de.. i believe in the specialist im gonna see on this coming monday!!

hmmm.. how am i able to start earning more $$.. with the amt of things i alrdi have.. hmm..

what do i REALLY HAVE!! thats the main qns =)

hmmm i need to think what i have as an asset and what do i NOT have and WHAT i NEED.. =X

dear ahz.. dun say u dun wanna see me or talk to me or anything.. i'll feel really.. very sad de... >.<

im a sensitive boy u know de.. haiz.. >.<

i know dear is sensitive too.. i'll try to remind myself nt to say anything hurtful or offensive de..
I'll TRY!! >.<

i love ur smile.. keep it there!! >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:07 AM

Monday, November 10, 2008

hmmm.. boring day today..

had morning duties again..

pain came and go off as usual..

working in army is boring when u are nt in proper condition..

practising songs as usual for a short time.. =x

hmm i nida do something abt my throat too.. hmmm...

dear dear today nt in proper condition..

lately nv slp well.. see lahz =(

not alert liao ler..

hmmm jia you okay~ >.<

dun blur blur den hit any part of ur body like ur leg today liao alright?? ke lian lor.. hit till toe.. very painful one..

and especially when u can't get used to having pains on body.. pls do take care ahz..

*prays for ur leg*

waitin for *huu huu exercise to begin*

lolx.. =X

hmm.. monday ended just like this.. the days to my specialist is coming..

conclusion.. hope my body gets well.. but i hope to get a downpes.. =x

i wish to be fit! nt weak!!!

gd nite ppl.. rest well... tonight is cooling.. shud be nice to slp.. nitez..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 8:59 PM

Sunday, November 09, 2008

我没良心吗？

hmmm..

time to rethink abt thoughts..

need to seriously talk a lot too.. =X

hmmm..

had a long day with dear~! =))

and.. sorry dear.. injured ur hand.. *gif lots of huu huu* =(
really sorry.. haiz.

was at marina with dear and the blurish couple. bt and sh =x

marina barrage is an interesting place.. but then.. DAMN ULU~~~

gt a pretty spot for watching fireworks and everything.. hahas..

a nice place for marriage proposals =x

had lots of sweet pics with dear =)

and the other couple should have their happy time together passed very well too =)

watched sunset.. if only there's lesser clouds.. hahas.. even thou the skies today is quite pleasant.. >.<

hmmm..

end of de day qoute~

AM I really so 不良 anot?? =(

if i am no gd. let me know. don't let me remain as someone who don't know what i did something wrong.. if there ever is. pls say.. i don't like to do retarded things especially repeatedly =(

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:21 AM

Friday, November 07, 2008

awesome day.

diahorrea in the early morning as continued from the day b4..

and hmmm.. went to see doc in 6am.. and den got no MC

a bit sian diao-ed..

and reached camp..

no mood to do anything..

know that dear have little amt of work..

know that dear dear got have her meal.. (yet. curry.. with an ultra pain ulcer de day b4..)

i don't think i should ask dear dear to try to drink more plain water..
i think dear is beginning to find him.. TOO naggy.. well maybe i am..

wad else.. i was asked to do some paper work.. which when im nt slping im reading books.. and others slping.. i got to be selected.. how fair right.. -.-

and especially when that person to selected me hates ppl to be slping.. and i wasn't slping..

until after that i try to get some more slp..

the medicine im taking is really drowsy.. =(

somehow.. a call came to tell me i having lessons from the nxt week on.. AUV class starting already.. im waitin for it to come for quite some time le.. but

the me previously is different from the me i am now..

i have things i need to do as my main objective..

i wanna spend more time with my girl..

i nid to improve on singing. but from this condition and situation i am in. its rather difficult as time isn't very flexible..

im losing my faith in myself..

im getting exhausted easily.. which im trying hard to be the same as i was..

i still am very concerned no matter how dear u think..

can i beg i am gonna know??

i believe that i told u this, as long as u request, i believe there's nothing that will be able to stop me from doing it..

communication is VERY impt in r/s

without it we'll lose the biggest war.. which is the beginning to lose ourselves before we lose our own will and chain of thoughts due to misunderstanding..

i dun believe this is sufficient for us to get into any dilemma to distrust any of us..

pls..

i just wanna be together forever.. no matter how i behave.. i truly have only one thought in my mind

i only wanna say "i do" to the man and then put on a ring for u to seal our fate together and forever.

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:46 PM

Thursday, November 06, 2008

haiz..

dear dear wan me to feel bad.

win le.

ytd forget to tell dear dear i had a sharp pain in chest.. =x

and today so far oni having some feeling like pressure and some pains once in a while too.. in the chest tt is.. luckily this few days i nv feel anything very bad when slping..

so slping at nights has been very smooth..

dear dear ahz.. hope u can recover asap.. >.<

*huu huu~* virtually till u can get it physically during weekends k.. XD

ahhh I WANNA RUNNNN
PLAY SPORTS..

AHHH~~!!! =(

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 8:36 PM

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

pain pain day..

today my chest hurting more than usual..

i wonder what has caused it..

maybe tmr i'll be admitted to hospital.. still thinking if i shud serious do something like that..

dear dear having some ulcer in the throat..

get well soon k..

songs songs songs songs.. i nida practise singing!!!

feel like reading language books.... >.<

and self improvement types.. =x

nvm.. time to rest.. nights ppls..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:18 PM

Monday, November 03, 2008

ahh.. =)

long time no post le.. hmmm.. i think dear dear must have been waitin VERY long le..

hahas.. had lots of time with dear dear!!

time is sweet..

hahas.. did something cute.. i think dear likes it? =)

a cure for de lack of my love.. called.. "love capsules" ? hahas.. interesting name right =x

but i doubt its any useful.. just something that helps make dear dear feel my sincerity!!!!!

>.<

hahas..

hmmm.. body feeling easily exhausted.. but getting used to it liao..

and dear dear actually put it into a rather cute bottle just nice to fit them it!! hahas =x

hmmm... and to say.. this few days.. time has passed by sweetly..
while a bit of disturbing here and there..

this morning got some banglah idiot bang de bike on to my poor girl...
i cant do anything to help.. =(

can oni "HUU HUU" nia.. =x

and hahas.. i'm DAMN broke ahz.. =( so sad.. i nid more $$

and lately have been reading a book abt pain and pleasures..

hahas.. what an interesting thing isn't it..

qoute of the day..

everything we tries to do.. its linked with pain and pleasure..

an e.g.

if we go to work.. there's some possibilities of why we try to go to work..

e.g. 1..
the pain of goin to work and tire ourselves or to spend time on working when there's other things u might wanna do, and the pleasure to get more $$ to spend and enjoy the spendings..
e.g. 2..
the pleasure of working to kill time while even having more pleasure by thinking positively your working mates are fun to be with while having the pain of not having time to spend the $$ well.

interesting right?? hahas =)

i'll wanna be earning the $$ 1st.. and then thinking of how to spend the $$ afterwards when i have spare time along!! =x

a bit unreal. but tt's just a thought.. hahas =x

tts for tonight.. cyaz ppl =)

*hugs* hope u like the present from me hahas =)

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:38 PM