Introduction

Rell Cai HanChuan =D

if i have to choose between

loving you, and breathing. I

would use my last breath to

say

I LOVE YOU.



Wish to
learn~ Driving,
And to earn more $$..
and to love dear more~ >.<




Speaking



Way-out

MY CUTE GIRL!!
my new xiao mei?? =.=
her mummy.. =.=
Oh my bruddar
Chi Square
TheHouse.
A-lan
paul the disney singer o.o
miss composer
the self-proclaimed shuaige
the woman who stoled a man's voice
The big guy
de sexy lady ~.~
de sexy voice!
kitty cathy!
espall bao
val
tgst
kelly
ThePast

. September 2004
. October 2004
. March 2005
. April 2005
. May 2005
. June 2005
. December 2005
. January 2006
. March 2006
. April 2006
. May 2007
. June 2007
. August 2007
. September 2007
. October 2007
. November 2007
. December 2007
. February 2008
. July 2008
. August 2008
. September 2008
. October 2008
. November 2008
. December 2008
. January 2009
. February 2009
. March 2009
. April 2009
. May 2009
. June 2009
. July 2009
. August 2009
. September 2009
. October 2009

Sunday, August 31, 2008



ah.. removed my bandage tonight and my legs(left picture is left thigh, right picture of my right thigh) are like this now.. a bit disgusting i know. but

ITS STILL MY LEG YOU KNOW? >.<


hmm.. today morning i managed to grab some slp i suppose.. around 2 hours of slp. DEEP SLUMBER omg. >.> i heard from my bro i snored like some pig lol? =x
waited to go have our family photo taken today.. and hmm.. ok my shoe is getting darker due to some reasons and my temper is on FIRE today thx to lack of slp i suppose..
finished it super late.. due to their SLOW actions... zzzzz.. delay here and there.. yeah.. >.<
met up with dear! hahas.. and dear is too tired cuz of painting the pictures for DFC's FC!!
so hardworking. till hand pain.. =.=
den she's too hungry.. aiming for food...
today's meal is NICE!! hahas.. waraku is GD =) nv let me down yet.. but hmm.. their dessert nids some improvement i suppose.. their white chocolate truffle de coating actually used coconuts + coconut hybrid chocolates de roche? =.= its retarded.. the taste aint nice either.. =.= and is loa hong de.. >.<
hmm.. den send her home.. woah.. the amt of ppl waitin for train is mad today.. ok.. hate the ppl at comex.. =.= wad an IT Fair. so MUCH PEOPLE LOR OMGG >.<
den the train actually had an error when i just nice left them and my stomach felt rather bad..
and then the train had error for like 7 mins stucked in the same spot. then the train finally stop and forced all passengers out of it and then i waited for like till the 3rd train den i can get on it. and finally get home in like 30mins odd in the total time... =.= What a troublesome day. ahh.. zzz
i'll need to take proper care of myself.
dear needs it too.
pls do it properly.
can't bear to see u suffering u know? =3
this is our 1st month being together officially..
im glad that u are the special someone that i love!! =)
the reason is, u ARE special to me!!!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:44 PM



AH! i nv get any slp the whole night haiz. =(

why is this so itchy.. the whole day itching. now the whole night. haiz.

dear i can't help it. pls dun blame urself for it k..

i even tried taking some umeshu alcochol.. feeling warm. still itches.. =.= no use one. haiz

and im feeling SO awake lah omg. ahhhhh...

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 7:25 AM



ah. ok. i almost feel numb.. due to enduring pain for too long..

i think i some what know my limit of enduring pain.. i CAN ENDURE A LOT PAIN.. just tt im losing the senses.. to the extend of feeling like losing my conscious? >.<

hmmm.. woke up rather late today.. but inbetween hard time slping bah i suppose?? >.< thx to waking up inbetween i think.. 1 or 2 times.. hmm..

den.. woke up.. waited for dear to come.. took rather long.. she finally got her phone.. at least she wun feel so pek cek now..

hmm.. met up with her! =) feels like i nv see her for long time sia.. time without her feels sooo difficult to pass by.. =(

hmm.. den met up with her.. enjoy our time together watching shows.. BUREIBA!! =x

went to bedok by bus.. hahas.. rather a warm bus to be in..

and dear had her faviie ice cream again. hahas.. love to see her enjoying her food..

ok.. pastamania sucks big time.. lately all the foods im taking from those fast-food sort of restuarants is getting worse and no where average..

cheng + li te are fun ppl to be tagging around with.. hahas.. apparently they rather outgoin.. >.<
amazed by my dear's and sh's imagination power.. a bit.. rather hiong.. towards that kind u know.. =.= (I'm so AWED cuz i dun even dare to put such words in my mouths.)

hmmm.. hahas.. its always meaningful to be beside her.. it simply adds color to my black and white world so far.. which i only live for one dream many goals. hahas.. now i got another dream too! =D

hmmm.. im trying hard nt to let u know leh hahas.. u are having tears le lor..

i dun like my precious darling to have tears inside her eyes for no reasons u know? =)
rmb. smile for me. =D

and cuz i know dear will be there for me.. i'll be trying hard to be healthy so u wun worry and even have tears for no reasons! >.<

hehes.. today did something sweet hahas..
im nt so shy le! =x somehow feel normal? i feel that its alright if its u!! that;s why! =)

想你已经变成了和我呼吸一样的习惯

dear.. dun feel bad! cuz.. u are my sweetest antidote i can find =D

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:36 AM

Friday, August 29, 2008


hmm.. a somewhat "eyes tired" day.. rather weird thou.. hmm.. hahas.. i duno why either! >.<

been thinking of many things thanks to being TOO FREE at home.. its boring u know..

i WANNA go library borrow books liao.. this is too sian omg.. and dear still very bothered with her phone.. PINK VIEWTY PLS POP OUT INTO SINGAPORE SHOPS PLS!!

hmm.. went to see doc this morning.. ppl look at me like i nid some urgent help when my leg looks SUPER RED AND DISGUSTING

nurses + doctors see liao ask.. OMG U NEED HELP? DOES IT HURT?
den i was thinking. hmm ya i nid help, ya it hurts a lot standing up too.. but how are u gonna help me.

lols.. den after around 10 mins they stunned and they are back to their work..
i was then pushed to the emergency.. and my when they are told i went to some other places to see doc b4 there.. they all sianed diao.. den made me go queue up for another time to get myself to see a doctor..

and when i finally get to see.. he says nothing much, its healing fine.. its normal that it hurts.. it will take several weeks to heal depending on each person's recovery.. hmm.. lets see am i superb in healing =D

dear came just now.. hahas.. my dad din say anything.. unexpected =s lols.. and my mother asked hmm.. she finished work and come one ahs.. den i say. yep yep.. den she asked, ur girlfriend really dun wanna eat ah? got food leh... den i said. yea she dunwan she had something previously. den nvm lor =)

hmmm.. watched show together.. hahas.. i wanna spend more time together with her!! =D
memories that i can bring into future with her!! its important to me when im in army u know!!

虽然只是三个字
很简单的
我还是要说
我爱你
=D

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:34 PM



haiz.. im bloggin now is cuz i can't slp due to too much itch on my leg.. >.<>.<
hope i can get to slp soon..

ahh.. i miss her again.. as usual.. lols.. its a common thing that happens now and then.. =s

my girl is hunting for a viewty lg phone!! pls.. anyone tt see's it inform asap!! >.<

ahh.. my leg itch so much its begin to irritate me.. =(

hope tmr see doc will be better..
think i have to wait a while till my leg get to feel better b4 i can slp liaoz =(

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:07 AM

Wednesday, August 27, 2008



eh.. my legs again!! ahhhh sian.. they itch like hell now.. =( stand up only it hurts a bit too.. hmm..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 6:48 PM


pain

a sudden post again
im missing her..
i felt hurting becuz i couldn't get to contact her
i think she must had felt bad when im down and when i don't feel like talkin to anyone..
the more i dunwan to affect her about how i feel, the more helpless she felt..
now i think she's feeling the same sort of emotions.. allowing me to feel helpless as well..
i was in the wrong.. my apologies..

what im goin thru is something i cannot help of.. cuz i can do nothing but dear i know there's always something which only u can do for me..

just stay near me.. dun stay far from me..

dun allow me to have the chance to regret nt having the chance to be with u.

until the day of an unwanted separation actually happens.
no one knows what will happen..
i dunwan to predict when it will happen,
that's why i will wanna make every second worthed its value.
smile for me even if its for a second..
i want to see it from your heart.
just like how i look at you and i won't feel bad or sad anymore..
its simply a sweetness from the heart when we know we are close together.

allow us to stay together thou it might nt be long.
i'll wanna make the moment forever in our hearts.

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 4:18 PM



okay.. this is a heart-felt post.. i felt useless and powerless again..
thanks to my leg.. i missed out a lot of things.. due to my own carelessness..
im supposed to turn up for recording.. missed it again.. caused trouble again..
missing the coming PG practise which i think i seriously nids a lot training and practises cuz im still very stress to perform to teachers and when weisong laoshi is around i get more stress naturally..

and cause of my leg i can't get to bring my dear home at all.. i feel more sian
and no much outings available thou i am entering army soon..
lying around at home makes me feel like a worm waitin for time to pass while i grow larger everyday by wriggling around..

thinking abt how young i am and incapable i am has always made me feel sad all the while.. i expect too much things from myself maybe.. but there's so many others who could do what i am currently unable to do of.. in a way. i really feel that i suck..
im losing hope in myself gradually..
i feel that i lost the vibe in singing again..
the feel to sing a song with emotions into it.. simply im unsure of whats going to me either..
can only allow time to unviel what i am going to be like tt.. i hate this.. im someone who love to make my on future.. and nt let the future wrap itself around me.. hmm..

sorry dear.. i know u dun like me to write such emo things.. but dear.. im really feeling rather down now too.. so sorry..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 2:41 PM

Tuesday, August 26, 2008




here's my picture of burnt leg areas. >.<
ugly legs i have now.. >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 5:03 PM

Monday, August 25, 2008


her tears in her eyes today is "superbly" a lot..
it saddens me to see her tears coming out..

today.. dear had a hard day..
hard time travelling..

hard time looking at me..
让你伤心了
对不起.

i remember this phrase very well.. thou its from an anime but i seem to be feeling it now.
"it hurts more to see your loved ones getting hurt than getting hurt on yourself."

我的每天是为了你而值得
我的未来是为了你而活着
就是为了给你我最深的爱

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 8:53 PM



haiz. =(

wad a bad night. wanted to make some noodles.. and ended up scalding after trying to eat on a chair.. and the computer chair.. =( made a lot trouble for many people~ T.T the floor somewhat burnt too..

im hating this.. it hurts rather a lot.. super red and swollen here and there.. luckily i can tahan pain very well.. haiz.. so swollen.. how to let it nt swell.. =(

a bit duno shud i tell dear whats on.. i dun wan her to worry too much for me =( but if i dun tell her i feel bad.. cuz i wun wan her to nxt time fall i'll or anything else and nt let me know.. hope my leg will be better at least by tmr after see-ing doctor.. =(

i miss her a lot.. yet im still hurting.. hmmm >.< gd nite or gd morning to everyone that had read my blog..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 4:12 AM



hmm.. today woke up.. raining in the night.. okays.. super cooling temperature.. hahas.. den i woke up at 1!!! ~.~ lols..

rushin here and there wanted to go fetch her.. end up rain.. crapped.. i dun feel like taking umbrella everywhere.. =S

end up the rain bigger and bigger.. stupid sia.. today's weather too irritating.. hmm.. yet im feeling super hot.. i wonder what i ate.. haha! still can perspire lor.. >.<

hmm.. den did performance.. obviously the teachers enjoyed themselves.. thats the main impt part of everything! thou i did nt do very well... hmm.. everything has their own 1st times!! mine isn't very gd!! cuz i couldn't act very naturally.. >.<

i nid more chances.. hope there still are!! =D

hmm.. planning of my future ahh.. army is a gd place to think more of my future.. but i dun intend to sign on there of cuz~ =x

yeah.. send her home and met up with friends.. chit chat abit about life again.. and carry on with our own lives again..

simply life is this way.. we each have our own paths.. just like a lot of strings.. and sometimes.. we connect each other.. but still.. we continue with our own directions.. and for ur partners for life.. which i just found.. in a way, its like strings that grew a bond and intertwined together and continue their lives together in one direction.. hahas..

this is a life i chose, i'll carry on like tt.. i'll make sure this 2 strings shall tie together into a strong rope!! =D

dear..
everytime together is making me loving u more and more..
so far we never met problems, i believe that problems are something tt will come naturally..
yet im nt afraid of it.. cuz i know..
we can definitely get thru it together de!!
and cuz of that..
我们会永远的在一起！！！

^^

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:17 AM

Sunday, August 24, 2008

fireworks~

woke up early today.. hahas.. actually rather tired.. last night too irritated by the rain being so loud hitting on my windows.. and feeling cold in bed.. hmm.. the only time when i feel cold is when im lyin on the bed sia~

hmm.. den watching zettai kareshi~ hmm.. ultimate boyfriend if directly translated.. hmm.. its a nice show.. recommended to watch.. i like that naitou-kun's mentality. hahas. im born to love her. XD

and seriously. i do love her loads too.. >.< hehe!!
a kiss on my cheek today made my day so gd haha! =x at 1st i felt. wow. this is the sweetness that one can get!! hahas.. its nt something that words can be used to describe!!!! ah~ i love u dear~ =x =3

hmm.. den went to watch fireworks.. okay.. that's the biggest i've ever seen so far in my life.. its a superb sight for me in the whole lifetime so far~ nv been so nice!! =D and with her beside me.. hahas.. this is happiness bah?? =)

hmm.. yy.. gd luck in finding a gf. but. rmb this.. a gf is oni for u to be together with in time.. u won't want to get along with just anyone isn't it?.. only certain people get to share ur happiness together.. that's what i think is correct bah.. at least tt's how i think r/s should be like.. so i can say.. im pure lucky or just hahas.. its fated to be like this so far~ =D

hahas.. exchanging *isses hahas.. =X
come!! =3
allow me to love u more and this is not an option for u to choose!!! =x

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:21 AM

Saturday, August 23, 2008


hahas.. mood turned better.. hmm.. getting realized for what is to be done on sunday.. hope i dun crap it out..

my dear is lookin cute as usual! hahas.. pei me dinner today hahas.. in a way.. but i had some food b4 that.. so nt so bad.. =D

hmm.. i am somewhat understanding.. its the different me i am when im with her.. maybe just the real me.. the me inside trying to come out.. hahas =x

today pg is tiring. having headache.. and i think i pissed people off. im nt in form to sing at all.. my performance sucked out.. haiz.. hmm.. i nid more practises.. i think im lacking practises at home! omg.. haiz.. i nid help ler.. =( i'll improve i know! =D

hmm.. thats all!! =D maybe post again tmr when i haf mood =x

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:02 AM

Friday, August 22, 2008


sometimes im just so afraid of my thoughts that i will wanna run away.. im afraid of becoming someone other than myself.. i wonder who i really am too.. haiz.. what i really wanna do is so different sometimes.. so much im so scared of changing.. thou i am someone who inspire to change and improve.. but in a way.. im too scared to change.. im afraid of becoming someone who is nt that me i was before.. hmm...

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:50 AM

Thursday, August 21, 2008


i love my dear avril tan shi ing!! >.<
she is mine!! =D

today have been boring..
nothing much to do.. resting is the word?(slacking is the idea thou)

hmm.. went to fetch her home.. and then went home..
finally get to see her again!! hahas.. today dear wear super cute.. >.< with her pink jacket too.. =D

hmmm.. tmr is another bz day!!! jia you together!! >.<

waitin for saturday to come.. but so far no plans yet.. hmm.. =S

we'll exchange miss-es from each other almost everyday apart.


but i'll want to exchange kisses from each other almost every chance together! XD

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:50 PM



hmm.. today is a very sad day.... mood very down.. lazy to work..
den still. i went for work..
ok.. full hse for 2 hours.. durin tt time.. the stupid dishwasher nv turn up for work again.. and i have to take over the dishwasher's job..
inside there i hurt my fingernail and my finger inbetween i duno whatever its called.. fork pushed a bit in.. and it hurts.. and i dun feel like washing.. cuz the more water hits onto it the more irritated i feel.. =s

hmmm.. nvm.. get over with it.. and then my boss keep on asking me back into that area to wash more of it.. and then she say i wash very slow and wanted to take over me.. den the rest of the people thinks that she is VERY SLOW too... esp the other supervisors.. and they switched her out and do.. she really the supervisor.. the powerhse! hahas.. =x

hmmm.. thinking of dear again.. during work.. b4 work.. and after work.. haiz.. how i wish i can meet her up.. but i got so many things to do.. sian one =(

haiz.. i wan my weekend =( nvm! tmr seeing her.. ^^ mood turns gd =D

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:22 AM

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

boring tuesday.

ahh.. woke at 9.30.. went back to lie on bed.. till 10.30.. and i felt quite energetic.. hmm.. then my brain start to be missing her liaox.. >.<

hahas.. eh.. she nv work this morning again!!! =s so bad.. bu guai~ =x den cuz of talkin to her. i became a bit late for work.. hahas.. reached a little earlier.. but haben eat.. so took some food there to bite and work.. hahas 5 min meal.. definitely nt satisfying..

and then, a manager i dislike actually working today! >.<>.<
nid moisturiser madly..
hmm.. den closed early today.. hahas.. i did things fast so as to go home!! =x of cuz to talk to my dear.. =D

and hahas.. now im super hungry.. gosh.. but im lazy to get any food.. sian lol.. =/
wad a day.. im so nt tired.. =s ah.. dear cook something for me lahz =X >.< noodles i oso ok one.. hahas.. =x but i kno its so difficult to come true at this stage.. T.T

ahhh how i wish i can wake up and see her everyday.. but.. hahas... i kno its hard.. >.< for 1 day oso very hard ler~ =x (link from hot shot~)

hmm.. now hand very dry.. nt nice to type liao.. sian.. dun feel like typing further.. =X

the time without being near makes me lonely.. as usual.. >.<>

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:34 PM

Monday, August 18, 2008


today's 篮球火 put a 我已经习惯一个人了...

that's a phrase i onced used on myself too.. its making me emo.. when there is no reason for me to be emo-ing.. hmm.. just a word i used b4 and it simply makes my mood down.. ya..

she came along today.. to my place.. and hahas.. my hse is empty and only with me the lonely man.. slacking all the while watch show trying let the time fly pass till the moment of meeting her.. and yet again, the time together with her always feels so little.. ahh.. sianz.. =(

and dear came and watched the 篮球火and yeah.. sometimes.. im so down i can tear when im watching this show.. simply i felt the loneliness which i had long time ago thats why =x


knowing that we will split ways make me feel lonely.. even thou we can talk on phone/sms/ via online.. yet.. i feel lonely.. ahh.. i think im asking for too much then.. >.<

im trying to bear with it!! tonight thundering and raining all of sudden.. hope dear can slp well.. i'll be there to pei u too~~

i can't stop missing u the moment we part ways.. T.T

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 8:57 PM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

jp.performance

ahz.. woke up rather early in the morning at 9. while ytd night slpt around 4+ to 5? hmm...
damn tired alrightz..

went for performance.. hmm.. ok its boring.. cuz i can't concentrate well enuff and ppl say i went off note while i duno, cuz i can't hear well.. my senses aren't working well i suppose..

finished performance and went to lwssom to help out the DFC FC again.. but i was too tired took a short nap and they finished whatever they wanted to do.. hahas.. all i did was slack around =x

and we went to cine/taka to walk walk.. haiz sian. i wanna earn big bucks.. but its too far fetched for me now.. i nid to slowly climb my way up.. which is like.. gonna be SOOO FAR AWAY~~ >.<

how can i + will i gonna be successful when im nt doing anything much right now. haiz.. i nid to improve myself by reading more of the latest news and all sorts of things.. i nida improve!! nt only on singing and being a responsible bf! i nid my future too!!

ahz.. i think im too tired today.. haiz.. my whole body is nt working very well.. DAMN tired.. so tired my whole body sooo heated up.. i wonder.. is my body overheating? haha =x

thinking of accompanying her.. yet my body is too weak.. haiz.. sucks.. my mind doze off randomly one.. trying hard to concentrate.. =(

reaching myself to my goals..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 8:39 PM


sick

hmmm.. a day of performance..

sian late to meet her up.. i dun like being late.. ZZZZ.... had my lunch at yoshinoya.. beef bowl. eh.. nt bad.. normal meal.. long time nv had it.. but it could have been better..

stomach runs for the morning till meeting her up.. 3 times.. den at the performing location another 1 more time.. okay.. its sucks.. my stomach apparently nt goin good.. some indigestion taking place i noticed.. hmmm

hmm.. dear was doing the camera job.. when she is alrdi super tired.. my dear is there for enjoying performance de!! nt to do such jobs de haiz =(

and for my performance wise.. they say pitch is ok.. den the emotions nt enuff.. ok.. im thinking of the lyrics like all the while.. =s so maybe tts why =x im scared i lost of words..

hmmm.. den went movie! ok it was retarded a little.. meaningless a little.. but the story part.. hmm.. bearable is the word.. the songs wise.. nt bad.. quite nice.. hahas..

eating is a chore for me so far today.. i felt bad.. and its getting worse till now..

and hmm.. i still think me and dear nids to open up to each other more.. we are still behaving.. in a way we are too careful to each other.. but everytime we open up.. we will understand further of each other??

its an important point of topic everytime we open up right?? =D
im sure u know that too!!

hahas.. loving someone is nv a chore!! its a happiness!! =D thats why im happily loving u! =x

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:46 AM

Saturday, August 16, 2008

performance.mode.ON!

gonna have my 1st performance in the name of PG soon!

army enlistment in less than 1 mnth from now!

im missing her everyday.. every moment without her by my side.. ahh.. sianz =(

i will want nice nice photo with her too.. >.< where i can see when i really miss her too much =(


slack around 1st bahz.. im rather afraid of being unable to go do the ippt thingy.. a bit sian hmm.. nid to train up.. i'll wan my saturday morning alrdi at home just woke up the feeling!! >.<

ok.. might post again tonight.

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:58 AM

Friday, August 15, 2008


ahh.. wad a tiring day again!! ahahs.. i slpt a lot today.. but i din think it is enuff due to the weekly accumulation of exhaustion.. >.<

hmm.. had my pg again today!

ok i nid to buck up on speakin to audiance / spectators!! mirror pls!! =D i nid to learn how to smile and know how to speak is nice lookin too!!

hmm... dear is very tired today.. yet say wait for me.. end up nv speak at all.. hmm.. funny rite.. u need to rest one lehh!! >.<

ok.. im in unable mood now... nt bloggin further.. nitez.

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:52 PM



ah~ welcome the new blog! hahas.. i love cute stuffs! >.<

and i love my dear too!!! nt just cause she is cute!!! cuz she is simply the one i want to have beside me every moment to share joy and laughter!! =D

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 5:10 PM

Thursday, August 14, 2008


ahahas.. my mother like my DEAR! she smiled admitting that u are cute! wahahas.. XD

and my god mother oso says u are cute on front of ur face! wahahahas.. dear u shud be happy!!

haiz im too slpy today ler.. brain tired.. zzzz mentally blocking out stuffs that i should be able to think properly.. >.<

sorry i fell aslp.. =(

lack of slp till the morning...

every moment spent together only makes separation more lonely..
the way u get ur back shown to me everytime we split apart..
every goodbyes make me miss the times we said hellos..
i wanna have u carved in my eyesight permanantly or an image in my brain which then i'll feel happier! >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 6:44 PM



woke up in the morning thanks to a couple of sms-es + talkin of my family.. in the morning and the bickering over small talks.. zz.. their voices is like nt soft at all.. so near to each other can speak till so loud one.. bth..

den dear nv go to work again! hahas.. see lah nv slp well..

dear shud learn to tell me abt her sickness.. its something i should be knowing of too..

it might worry me.. but at least let me do something abt it =D

chatted a lot last night rather some thoughts i have in mind for quite some time which i think maybe its alright to be made known to her as well.. woke up thinking of her as well!! =X and a song in my brain when i woke up..

王子的新衣.. damn nice! =D

*I won't wanna run away from you for what i am, and in my heart that had carved an "oath of love to YOU!!".*

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:36 PM

Wednesday, August 13, 2008


argh. im a playboy impression to auntie.. omg.. how is that even possible.. sucks..
i find myself more useless now.. zzzz

having headache.. maybe i should nt go to work tmr.. zzz.. nt in a proper mental state now..

that guy disgust me.. in most kind of ways.. he is rotten. for he nv thinks of how and what kind person he is.. from how and what i learnt from others of what kind of person he is..
"basically.. YOU failed as a MAN.." go be a gigolo lahz.

i dun think i can slp that early tonight either.. zz

"im nt in a proper mood"

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 11:14 PM



sad.. this morning dear is sick.. haiz.. im worried.. but once again i can't do much things.. i duno if now i go find her will i bring her more trouble.. feeling helpless and useless again.. plus i needa go work later.. if again as normal i can still ask for off work.. but nt very nice to take consecutive ones..

im so worried.. =(

are u okay?

how u feeling?

take some food ler? what u gonna have for lunch?

>.< what abt dinner?

hmm.. pray for u to be feeling better.. >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:44 AM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008


hmm.. this few days.. i've been thinking of her a lot !! hahas.. and being rather close with her too.. i think even my body is getting used to her company.. thou i will still be a bit shy.. and erm..

hahas. =x

throat finally getting better.. but.. my nasal still have quite a bit of problem... im afraid i might get to affect people around me.. =( esp her.. >.<

today had a nice time! =x

hope dear wun be so tired bahz.. she shud take her rest soon too.. =3

im falling deeper and deeper.. >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:23 PM

Sunday, August 10, 2008

a sian diao day..

ok.. woke up and went back to slp.. trying hard.. and slpt till 10.20 around there.. finally a day i slp slightly more than 6 hours.. >.<

den went down to lwssom and help out with the fanclub.. and also to meet her up!! >.<

yea.. and yy looks so damn down lately..

somehow he din wanna talk to me much..

hmmm.. yy.. relax.. there's other more impt things for u to think out as well de.. =D prioritise ur things and u might have a lot of better time to smile and do better things =D

sent her home and went home.. today's time passed by so fast again..

hmmm.. my cousin went IMH. hmm.. my ah ma.. cried.. a lot.. haiz.. life is so unstable.. people are so fragile..

when one get hurt.. people around them.. hurts even more..

when one falls down.. the others wants to pull tt "one" up.. but if can't, they can only accept sorrow and desperation..

its such a sad truth in life..

i love the smell she has on her!!! >.<

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:54 PM


a day at sentosa!

yeah.. a day at sentosa after ages of nt visiting there..

hmmm.. met up with them after my brother brought me there =D thanks lots =D

i was very late.. haiz.. felt bad.. ok.. i truely am..

den we went there.. a lot of ants invaded our area.. apparently dear dislike having bugs around her.. okay.. but it can't be helped.. its beach = sandy = ants are everywhere definitely..

DFC! and us had a lot of fun time!! but too bad i dun haf any pics.. >.<

night time went subway to dinner out.. hmm.. nt bad.. long time no subway ler.. she had her few favs of her snacks today again.. could see how enthu she is willing to eat something she loves.. hahas..

den halfway sh went off.. and we slacked around longer and went there.. O bar.. hmmm.. nt a bad place.. had some drinks to satisfy our thirst.. and had her fav drink there too.. unfortunately.. she isn't interested to drink there today due to certain reasons.. she wanna come nxt week.. okay im prepared.. =x

hmm went home after singing + drinking some juices hahas.. nt bad.. but im nt in proper condition to drink cold + sing much.. but yet i did.. ok i think i might have to suffer the consequences after that..

waitin for more bz days to come again.. =x

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 2:41 AM

Thursday, August 07, 2008


AH! my dear came today ler.. hehes.. so happy.. 1st time she came over too.. >.< my mother saw us.. and i introduce her to my mother.. my mother nv say much things.. hahas.. say she is very small size.. but i like it the way she is = gd ler!

went to see doc. had throat infection... >.< so try nt to speak so much.. but asking me to nt talk to anyone much im alright.. nt talkin to dear.. i'll feel bad if i dont.. hahas.. so =P *bleah* i'll still talk to her only haha!

hehe.. den share with her some of the animes collection i have.. got very cute, and funny ones.. hahas.. hope she wasn't bored being at my place.. >.< i very worried if she is getting bored..

ah.. simply love hugging her.. hahas.. its in a postion i like it very much too.. i wonder how she felt.. >.<>.<

hehe.. tmr shall be more fun ler!~ =D

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 10:47 PM

Wednesday, August 06, 2008


woke up as usual.. 9am odd.. -.- can't slp more than that.. haiz.. >.<

boring day at work.. a bit of busy.. but after tt nth is interesting..

she had a hard day.. as usual.. jia you my dear.. u are more of a practical person.. rmb this.. learn by trail and error, thats something tt will be useful to u.. the more u try, the better u are at things.. im sure u know that too..

jia you bah.. anything u wanna rant abt.. rmb to find me.. i'll be ur listening heart =D

hmm.. HATE SORE THROAT.. im so lazy to even talk lah.. haiz.. lucky there is msn.. -.-

i wan my voice.. i wanted to call her and talk today.. looks impossible ler..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:57 PM


wad a wednesday..

yea.. woke up sian again today.. can't slp well in morning.. woke up damn early again. -.-

den chatted with her hehex.. to make my day better slightly.. XD

went to prepare and work for 11 hours.. moody halfway sia.. miss her too much =(

den got some ppl so lame-ly tell me.. "hey, can u do something abt the fly in this restaurant?" and i replied.. : "erm.. what do u think i can do? running around aimin for a fly to make sure its dead? " but of cuz i nv put it like tt, i said.. " ah.. sorry i can't help much, i'll let my manager know abt it."

and in the end, nothing was done.. expected.. -.-

and i thought of her.. arghhh.. missing her omgg....

den someone jammed the service.. i almost exploded.. ren zhu.. -.- bad day liao.. im nt suppose to do things such as blaming others during work.. im nt in the position of doing anything of that sort.. trying to think of happy things a.k.a think of her face and smile and to go out together on the friday so i will feel better.. lols..

den missed dear even more every sec.. =(

end of the day. thinking of sms-ing her.. she waited up for me to talk to her after i finish my work lor! everyone that she could talk to is simply nt online anymore!

hahas.. she nv tell me i oso could tell.. >.<

so i just called her.. to pacify both our hearts of missing each other..

ahh.. i miss her voice.. hehes.. =x

and she's tired.. i know. i could tell.. but i just miss her.. and i kno she does too.. XD

ahh.. k.. gdnite! im tired.. slping ler!

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 12:54 AM

Monday, August 04, 2008

tired. and tml and the day after is gonna be no where better.

okay.. woke up damn early today.. had a dream of her.. hahas.. its sweet to dream of someone u like isn't it.. when i woke up it was cold but i didn't feel a little bit of painful.. =x

den work at swensons today.. ahh.. a bit moodless to work.. what else.. its very SLACK today.. not much ppl came for restuarant today.. the whole day.. omggg =( the time passed rather slow......

she nv sms me much... she was bz.. i tot.. but till 6.. oso nv sms me much... >.< i waiting.. waited.. and.. nvm.. =x thinking she is bz or stressed with her day.. ended up she tot i bz.. =(

ah.. sian.. physically exhausted.. mentally thinking of her.. lols.. its nt a chore nor a pain.. its a happiness! =x

i miss u.....

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 9:23 PM


a fun day with her again!

hahas.. its fun today!! had a commercial done up for lwssom pk nite..
it was tiring.. ok i got some itches here and there..

woke up damn early.. interuption of slp during the inbetween hours of 6-9 =(

got met up with a lot of ppl whom i nv see much too. hahas. saw lynn's bf.. wow.. he looks rich and clever.. i envy him..

but no worries.. i will be better than him someday.. afterall he is older =s

done with the commercial by b4 3.. and i tried to get home.. dear went to get her things... during that time.. while she waited to met up with me and yy.. hahas..

yy was waitin impatiently.. =( i tried to be on time.. but i can't help it..

met up with dear and sh at mac.. hahas.. wore till very grey today worrrr.. =x i still like happy colors on her.. >.< she bought 2 bags.. hahas.. i didn't noticed!! haiz. im too tired to be observant of her.. 失败阿 =( and sh bought some dress + top.. and wow.. she sure knows how to do things with her assets.. =x till at night some guys asked for her number.. but failed and got her msn instead.. haha!!

went to walk around bhg.. okay.. found myself a nice blazer which i think could be very useful since i nv had one!! and okay hahas.. she thinks its nice on me too.. i nida save up a little.. for my future yea?? i nid to work hard!! anyone needs a tuition teacher?! =D welcomed to find me!! esp for maths for pri and sec sch de =D

and had a meal at a hong kong cafe hahas.. asked them to try out nice food!! after all im a trained gourmet.. XD they enjoyed their food too.. =D but yy had a bad taste with flower-teas.. just nt for his taste butts.. =x and he keep on koping my mango milkshake.. hahas.. its nice!! XD i love it too.. hope dear like it too =D and hahas. sorry to sh for the forget of asking her abt what kinda food she interested in having.. haiz.. in my mind is full of dear.. sometimes i really forget everything else.. =( sat there and chat till we felt better to get the way back home..

wanted to let them see tiffany.. hahas.. she was workin there! and said tt chong(a guy tt is chasing after her) is working near here.. but yet i dun see anyone of her description.. but hmm.. hope its nt bad? hahas.. i can tell tt my LAO PO dun like me to talk abt her(jealousy i guess?).. hahas.. cuz in a way she was my ex-gf.. but dear be assured.. shes nt u.. u are way better.. definitely and sure of it! =D

hmmm.. sent her home.. kekex.. as usual the path of her way home at night for her.. but this night its a relax and slow walk with me while holding hands!! =D gd thing to send her home.. hehex.. its something to rmb-ed yea? =D i can't do it much once i enter army.. better do it more =(

took a boring trip home while my phone is out of batt.. >.< reached home feeling full and bloated with water..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:11 AM

Saturday, August 02, 2008


woah. tiring + sian diao day.. but beautiful day!!!!

today i heard my voice 1st time.. okay i personally find the recording suck.. erm.. rephrase.. is i sucked out the whole time.. im trying to listen to my own voice.. hmm.. i dun dislike my voice.. and rather interested to know hahas.. my voice actually shaped like that.. quite impressed by my voice for the 1st time.. actually a bit of CI XING woo =x

and pai zi nid to take note too.. i seriously some parts kok up.. >.<
MADLY LISTENING AND THINKING HOW TO IMPROVE!! =x

hmmm.. then meet dear up for her fanclub things!! ahh.. she hurt her hands.. but its okay one.. i'll be her hands when she is in pain. i'll be her legs if she is tired.. i'll be her eyes to see the world together! =D

hmmm and today. hehe.. its a big day too!!
finally we are in a r/s state ler! =x
i've planned to say this..
"Be prepared!! The tidal wave of love is coming down!"
XD..

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:26 AM

Friday, August 01, 2008


okay.. had a chat with sh just now and i felt tt i shud put it up.. hahas.. i think.. anger is a man's worse emotion.. i think i might have mistaken a lot of things abt tt guy.. i suppose i see things from the wrong view..

yeah sh, i think u are right.. mayb he does love her once.. and i suppose he forget that the responsibilities and promises comes together.. and giving her the lost faith and feelings.. and making her sad all the while.. cuz maybe.. he took her for granted after some time? thou that might be just a guess and a random thought.. i need to be more fair too all people of all sorts rite?who am i to judge people? im no saint nor anyone special.. hahas.. im doing a big reflection here right now.. interesting.. >.<


im beginning to find that 傻瓜 is a word i find meaningful.. cuz i might have been one too.. but definitely.. im nt as hurt as her and there might be others out there who have been worse..

after thinking twice, im looking at others downfall, im suppose to learn from other's past and nt make the same mistakes too.. hahas.. thou i am someone who will nt wanna make mistake and worry too much abt problems.. i will too learn from many others!

definitely.. i will learn to improve by comparing the me today.. and the me in the weeks to come..sorry i haben slp at this hour(to u sorry ahh.. ).. bz practising songs and chatting just now, and i was thinking abt how can i improve for i am a bf to be mah hor.. =D

kk time to take my rest!! nitez all.

♥Ran ♠Miki ♣Su ♦Dia @ 1:58 AM